Thus Spoke Zaratusthra

I never believed in the concept of lyfe changing book though I have been more or less a consistent reader.Recently I had an encounter with friedrich nietzsche and It was with his last book "Thus spoke Zarathustra".

I felt like, its a life changing book just after reading 30 pages of it.  Hoping to complete it soon.I hope it really does change lyfe.

En-lightened

Finally back to some good senses  and I have to work on things towards progress. I have realized the mistakes done and this should lead me to something good. Enough of illusions and short term pleasures. Now it is time to build the way towards the ideas I always had and make them realize, else wise  It will be too late to make them realize.

PS : #happy enlightenment

Glad

Have I been gone,
Just that I am alone,
I should be happy because
Somebody finds me charming,
and somebody who finds me admiring.

Craving for the home,
for the people I love,
I am at despair,
but I need to  be strong now.

There is a thing called hope,
which fulfills the desires unlimited,
the world has run on it,
and It also should keep me spirited.

I should look into finer details of lyfe,
get happy with a baby smile,
take a shot or two in a while,
cos lyfe is a voyage with unlimited miles.

I think of my closest  whenever I am sad,
I think of my great mom and dad,
because sorrow is just a fad,
I owe to god for this lyfe and I need to be glad.

Hmm.....

My world started with few people. I have dumped few people . I have lived with few people and I want to live with few of them forever.

I intend to have dependency on few and intend few to have dependency on me. Let the dependency of it be materialistic or non-materialistic ,it does't even matter to me.

Materialism is a non-dividend paying security and nothing else. But when non-materialistic investment stops paying dividend, that is when you ought to realize, you have made a bad investment and you ought to pull out of it as soon as possible.

The concept of self-interest is really not worth a discussion when we talk about relations.To me ,Finally people boil down to relations, materialistic and non-materialistic!!!

So when I close my eyes with content, I should be happy and living rather than dying.Cheers to all the people who bear me.

PS: Few shots of White rum  and I am flowing :)

I want to ........

I want to drink from the clearest water,
I want to climb the greatest mountain,
I want to tread the longest road,
Its life, so bliss,
and I cant afford to miss.

I want to live life healthiest,
I want to help the many poor,
I want to be the funniest,
Its life, so bliss,
and I cant afford to miss.

I want to play in the beautiful snow fields,
I want to live at the greenest meadows,
I want to jump from the greatest heights,
Its life, so bliss,
and I cant afford to miss.


I want to sing a beautiful song,
I want to get the high so craziest,
I want to heal many souls untouched,
Its life, so bliss,
and I cant afford to miss.

I want to pray the God so beautiful,
I want to be the most joyous of all,
I want to leave my name on the wall,
Its life, so bliss,
and I cant afford to miss.


I want to travel  a million mile,
I want to do all things before time,
I want to leave world with a smile,
Its life, so bliss,
and I cant afford to miss.


PS: inspired from movie "Life in a day". 100th post too :)

Light my fire :)

You know that Its so true,
You know that I am not liar,
Babe, It can't get much higher,
Come on baby, light my fire,
You know that its so nice,
You are the one,
I cant forget to admire,
I would be left to dire,
Come on baby , light my fire.

I know that its so right,
I would not be able to deny,
the time with you just fly,
I want to be on an eternal high,
Come on babe, light my fire
That is my only desire.
I know that its so good,
I can hold it if I could,
Come on, babe light my fire,
 this is the only thing I aspire.

We know that its so fun,
We know that it has just begun,
We know that its still not done,
Come on babe, light my fire,
We need to admit and admire.
We know that its so fine,
Let it be true and divine,
Come on babe, light my fire,
You are my unending desire.


PS : inspired from "The Doors"

O Womaniya

Jasmine was done with her engineering  and was able to find a job.She always wanted to do a job where she could make decent money, gift her mom a saree, gift her brother an Ipod, make a memorable trip with her friends.These were her quintessential wishes she wanted to do before she gets married to a guy who is decided by her parents.

Arpit was a guy who was masters in business administration and was working in Singapore as consultant in a multi-national. He had a colleague who was Korean and to his understanding, she understood every part of him.He wanted to marry her, but it was way too much for his parents.Arpit anyway could not dare to tell his ideas of marrying her and the only way he could marry her was by disappointing his parents.

Meanwhile Arpit parent's found a bride who was coincidentally Jasmine, as she belonged to the same community as that of Arpit.

Jasmine was told about Arpit by her parents and was shown a photo of him by an e-mail.Jasmine always wanted to know in detail of  the person  she is getting married to as she knew she will get married once which has to long lifetime.However, she hardly had anytime to know about him.The coming weekend as insisted by Arpit's parents, he has to travel to Agra, India, to meet his parents and go to meet Jasmine parents and decide on the prospect of the marriage.Jasmine was a good looking girl, not very modernized as the Korean girl and was more or less another orthodox Indian girl who had simple dreams, simple ideas and simple ways of having fun.She could be very happy with her first beer,first kiss ,or her first date  with her prospective husband.

Jasmine had to undergo a long interview with the parents of Arpit where she had to answer questions like ,if she can cook, tailor clothes and her behavioral aspects w.r.t children.Jasmine parents did the part of their effort to prepare her for the interview well.They knew the questions which were to be asked as if they were leaked from the interviewer and they prepared her for the responses to the questions.Jasmine was not happy of all these as she hated banality, but again she had to submissively accept without any retaliation.

Jasmine had to find a way to know if she can fit to his ideas and he can fit to her thoughts.She contemplated here and there and finally thought of taking the help of a friend, Aakash.Aakash was her colleague and a nice guy.Aakash had a history too in this story and he is attracted to Jasmine and when Jasmine asks her to find a way to know about Arpit and if Arpit is worth enough for a lifetime, he like any other Bollywood flick, subdues his emotions and gets ready to do the best for Jasmine as if it is the only holy task  left on earth.He tries to content himself by becoming the best friend to Jasmine.

Meanwhile Arpit has to subdue his emotions of his soul mate, the Korean girl and this recipes to a beautiful confusion.

Arpit had to make sure that Jasmine fits in his lifestyle.He had to ensure that she is decently read, well spoken so that he can take her to the social obligations he has to meet.He was concerned about the materialistic aptitude of her and this were pretty much asked by him and his parents.

Jasmine had to find a way here and was relying on Aakash to bring her to rescue.Aakash had an experience of  adoring Jasmine and he concluded that the best way to help Jasmine is to dump his emotions  he looked for the person he wants to marry.He calls her, says her that If she can ensure that the marriage happens somewhere after three months, she can ensure if she gets a right person.She should initially try to communicate with him for few times and then, as the God by nature has made men desperate will start taking care of the attention.Meanwhile, she can find his tastes, tell a bit about her too.In course of time, She should disclose some of her past , and make him disclose some of his sensitive past too.This formula needs time and this will ensure that the right thing is executed.

PS: Arpit marries Jasmine in next 4 months, the emotion of the Korean girl is faded from his mind and both are living happily.

PPS: An effort for a story on a difficult subject which was suggested by a friend.

PPPS: I hope the effort is worth it :)

I need You

From the day when i saw you girl,
i want to be with you now,
as without you, my life is not complete.
oh baby, i need you.
oh baby, I cant live without you.
For the rest of life,
i need you,
i love you.

From the moment i heard your name,
my thoughts have been never the same,
i have been dying to live with you,
as without you, my life is a "hell" complete.
oh baby, i need you.
oh baby, i cant live without you
for the rest of life,
i need you,
i love you.

From the first time when I kissed you,
this world looks altogether new,
I now know the meaning of bliss,
and can give anything for that one kiss,
oh baby, i need you.
oh baby, i cant live without you
for the rest of life,
i need you,
i love you.


From the moment when I fed you,
when you were in need,
Sick but yet loving me complete,
I decided , to be near you,
for the life eternal indeed,
oh baby, i need you.
oh baby, i cant live without you
for the rest of life,
i need you,
i love you.



PS: Inspired by Marc Anthony song.

LYFE

I left my home,
clueless about the future,
Is it the end,
or Lyfe begans again?

Heart has the determination,
Deprived of money,

Is it the end,

or Lyfe begans again?

Bucket list

I am pretty much inspired  from my favorite acting legends , i.e. Morgan Freeman and Jack Nicholson.

I feel like sharing my Bucket list after a lot of contemplation.I will add/edit in course of time and will cross it if done.

Bucket list

1. travel to France,Greece, Italy and other European countries

2. Be an entrepreneur

3.Do skydiving and bull race

4.Write a book

5.Start an organisation which serves similar to Narayan Krishnan

6.eat hash brownies

7.Own a house which has bar, library and a squash court

8.Learn a foreign language

9.Go to Allipey(kerala) again in lifetime

10.Finish beer at one go(650 ml J)

11.Go to las Vegas

12.Win something in casino

13.do  mountain biking

14.Complete a novel in go without stopping(need to do few more times)

15.Watch good movies continuously for a day

16.Spend more than 6 hrs in a library at a stretch

17.Kiss a hot stranger

18.Do trade in futures for once at least again

19. Travel to LOC

20. Experience Mount Everest

21.Go to wagha border

22.Eat favorite recipes of various foreign places

23.Take mom and dad to a foreign country

24.Buy mom a luxurious house

25.Learn swimming

26.To see a place full of snow

27. To see a Nadal vs Federer grandslam final
28. To visit the eight wonders of the world
29.To own a vintage car
30.To make a confession at a church

Guilty

Walking on the way,
I am reminded of a say,
What do you come here for,
till the end of your day.

Few make fortune,
Few die unnoticed,
few live for relations,
Few want to be remembered.

I look for the answers,
to the convoluted questions,
What would have happened,
If I would have made the opposite decisions.

some look for charity
to get rid of the guilt,
some look for humanity,
for the character they want to built.

I am the guilty too,
after all I am a human,
I have to be part of the society,
Better die unnoticed than to be rebellion.

India -65th year of Independence

It all started with a debate among them.One of them were pro to the debate and two  of them were against it.They thought about verifying the facts and decided to go to Yama  to seek permission.

When the situation was explained to Yama, Yama had to ask chitragupta about any ammendement corresponding the abrupt visit to place outside heaven.After an hour, Chitragupta was able to find a clause which mentioned  that by special request they can go for a limited time.Three of them came close  and agreed to spend a week on earth.

After a discussion among them, they reached a consensus that they will go to India.They wanted to see the present face of their efforts.They wanted to face the destiny of the purpose of their life.Chitragupta was taking updates on the location they want to and finally with some effort, he was able to calculate the geographical location.

It sounded a good trip to all of them.They will  be able to see  the healthy plants for the seeds they have sown by sacrificing their life.They were also concerned about the fact that they have to leave heavenly pleasures  and see something starkly opposite.

In some time , they were ready with bags packed awaiting for a journey of lifetime.Bhagat was very happy for the trip and was imagining the country for which he sacrificed his life at the age of just 23 years.His companions for the journey were his companions while death-Rajguru and Sukhdev.

They reached India with the magic wand of Chitragupta.It was 15th August and the first thing  they wanted to do was go to Delhi.They had to struggle hard to beat the crowd.They had passes arranged by chitragupta and were ready for a wonderful show ahead.The day started with a speech by Manmohan and three of them were mesmerized by the speech.They found that India was a nuclear country and felt proud of it.They had  a discussion with an old gentleman beside them and were very proud of the facts delivered by him on India.They learnt that India is going to be next superpower in next 30 years.In few minutes, they saw a wonderful display of the planes crafting India in the tricolors. All of them were at their feet jumping and clapping.Few of them found these people incongruous making irked expressions on their face.They belonged to elite class of India and expected sophistication.

After a wonderful time, they went to see India gate and were thrilled to see the place.It looked very artistic and they were thrilled to see it.They thought of going back to the place where they belonged to.Rajuguru went back to Maharastra, Sukhdev started towards punjab and Bhagat singh traveled to Lahore.They decided to meet two  days later and describe their experiences to each one  of them.

Sukhdev after reaching maharatra  saw Anna hazare fighting for anti-corruption movement.He asked few people around and found the exact story.The nation was now a slave of corruption .There were people who were fighting since an year for an anti-corruption bill.He thought, something so pure and so right takes so much time to be implemented.Back was the time, where people sacrificed their lives at a stranger's call to  free India.Now,people are agitated due to traffic problems created by these people.The people struck in traffic seem more intelligent , probably because they knew Its of no use.It looked like Corruption can neither be created, nor be destroyed,It changes from one form to another.

Meanwhile Bhagat Singh reached Lahore.He went to an old man and asked about the happenings in lahore.The old man snapped "bomb blasts."Bhagat Singh was shocked by the answer.The old man lost his two sons and all his grandsons in one of the bomb blasts.Last year, there were around 17 blasts, and the dead were countless.Some lost their children, some lost their parents, some lost their friends.The irony was: the  reason can be anything for bomb blast.The reason from public appearance of benazir Bhutto to public display of affinity towards a western nation.It all was very depressing to Bhagat.All his efforts towards the nation sounded dubious to him.He expected his country to be prosperous and happy while it was starkly opposite.

Rajguru was on the way to Ludhiana from Delhi and  saw big shopping malls on the way.He was tempted to go to one of the shopping malls.He entered one of the shopping mall. and started looking for something Indian.He roamed around and saw innumerable brands.Adidas, puma, nike.The country in the name of FDI is back with bringing foreign clothes and selling them like hot cakes.He was reminded of the struggle put by Gandhi ji  to ban foreign clothes.Now India has become hub for access to cheap labor and at the same time selling the same  foreign brands at the premium prices.The foreign companies accessed cheap labor of India  and at the same time, made fool of the upper class.India in a way was hollow to him.FDI's can collapse stock market  in few days by pulling out and slowing down the economy.He felt, India is missing the pillars of foundations towards progress.

Two days later, Bhagat,Sukhdev and Rajguru decided to return to heaven earlier than anticipated.All they could feel happy was Celebrations of 65th Independence day of India.

PS: After seeing a lots of celebration on facebook about 15th August, I decided to shift to the other side for this post.

Peaceful warrior

A movie different from the regular ones.Do see the movie.Its worth a watch for people who prefer "drama" genre. It had a lot of dialogues which are worth writing here.Some of them are below.

Socrates: Everything has a purpose, even this, and it's up to you to find it.
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[from trailer]
Socrates: A warrior does not give up what he loves, he finds the love in what he does
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[from trailer]
Socrates: I call myself a Peaceful Warrior... because the battles we fight are on the inside
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[from trailer]
Socrates: This moment is the only thing that matters.
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Socrates: Where are you?
Dan Millman: Here.
Socrates: What time is it?
Dan Millman: Now.
Socrates: What are you?
Dan Millman: This moment.
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Joy: [to Dan, touching his chest] I don't think your leg was the only thing that got broken.
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Dan Millman: The journey is what brings us happiness not the destination
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Dan Millman: The ones who are hardest to love are usually the ones who need it the most.
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Socrates: Those who are the hardest to love, need it the most
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Socrates: There is only the journey
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Socrates: A warrior is not about perfection or victory or invulnerability. He's about absolute vulnerability.
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Socrates: There is no starting or stopping - only doing.
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Dan Millman: There are no ordinary moments.
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Socrates: It's the journey, not the destination.
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Socrates: There's no greater purpose than service to others.
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Socrates: Everyone wants to tell you what to do and what's good for you. They don't want you to find your own answers, they want you to believe theirs.
Dan Millman: Let me guess, and you want me to believe yours.
Socrates: No, I want you to stop gathering information from the outside and start gathering it from the inside.
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Socrates: People are not theirs thoughts, they think they are, and it brings them all kinds of sadness.
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Dan Millman: Life has just three rules?
Socrates: And you already know them...
Dan Millman: Paradox, humour, and change.
Socrates: Paradox...
Dan Millman: Life is a mystery. Don't waste time trying to figure it out.
Socrates: Humour...
Dan Millman: Keep a sense of humour, especially about yourself. It is a strength beyond all measure.
Socrates: Change...
Dan Millman: Know that nothing stays the same.
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Dan Millman: I took for granted what I could do. I was sloppy with my life; I'm scared but I feel like I got rid of all the old stuff and it was the right thing to do.
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Socrates: Death isn't sad. The sad thing is: most people don't live at all.
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Socrates: Sometimes you have to lose your mind before you come to your senses.
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Socrates: Do you know what's the difference between me and you?
Socrates: You practice gymnastics, I practice everything! 

FUCK YOU

My all time favorite monologue , from 25th hour:

Fuck me, fuck you, fuck this whole city and everyone in it. 

Fuck the panhandlers, grubbing for money, and smiling at me behind my back.
Fuck the squeegee men dirtying up the clean windshield of my car. Get a fucking job! 

Fuck the Sikhs and the Pakistanis bombing down the avenues in decrepit cabs, curry steaming out their pores, stinking up my day. Terrorists in fucking training! Slow the fuck DOWN! 

Fuck the Chelsea boys with their waxed chests and pumped up biceps. Going down on each other in my parks and on my piers, jingling their dicks on my Channel 35. 

Fuck the Ko-rean grocers with their pyramids of overpriced fruit and their tulips and roses wrapped in plastic. Ten years in the country – still no speakee English? 

Fuck the Russians in Brighton Beach. Mobster thugs sitting in cafés, sipping tea in little glasses, sugar cubes between their teeth. Wheelin' and dealin' and schemin'…go back where you fucking came from! 

Fuck the black-hatted Hassidim, strolling up and down 47th Street in their dirty gabardine with their dandruff. Selling South African apartheid diamonds! 

Fuck the Wall Street brokers. Self-styled masters of the universe, Michael Douglas, GordonGekko wannabe motherfuckers, figuring out new ways to rob hard working people blind. Send those Enron assholes to jail for fucking life! You think Bush and Cheney didn't know about that shit? Give me a fucking break! Tyco! Worldcom! 

Fuck the Puerto Ricans. Twenty to a car, swelling up the welfare rolls, worst fuckin' parade in the city. And don't even get me started on the Dom-in-i-cans, 'cause they make the Puerto Ricans look good.

Fuck the Benson-Hurst Italians with their pomaded hair, their nylon warm-up suits, their St. Anthony medallions, swinging their Jason Giambi, Louisville slugger, baseball bats, trying to audition for ‘The Sopranos.’

Fuck the Upper East Side wives with their Hermes scarves and their fifty-dollar Balducci artichokes. Overfed faces getting pulled and lifted and stretched, all taut and shiny. You're not fooling anybody, sweetheart! 

Fuck the uptown brothers. They never pass the ball, they don't want to play defense, they take five steps on every lay-up to the hoop. And then they want to turn around and blame everything on the white man. Slavery ended one hundred and thirty seven years ago – move the fuck on!

Fuck the corrupt cops with their anus-violating plungers and their forty-one shots, standing behind a blue wall of silence. You betray our trust! 

Fuck the priests who put their hands down some innocent child's pants. Fuck the church that protects them, delivering us into evil. 

And while you're at it: Fuck JC! He got off easy…a day on the cross, a weekend in hell, and all the hallelujahs of the legioned angels for eternity! Try seven years in fuckin' Otisville, J!

Fuck Osama Bin Laden, Al Qaeda, and backward-ass, cave-dwelling, fundamentalist assholes everywhere. On the names of innocent thousands murdered, I pray you spend the rest of eternity with your seventy-two whores roasting in a jet-fueled fire in hell. You towel headed camel jockeys can kiss my royal Irish ass!

Fuck Jacob Elinsky. Whining malcontent. 

Fuck Francis Xavier Slaughtery, my best friend, judging me while he stares at my girlfriend's ass. 

Fuck Naturelle Riviera. I gave her my trust and she stabbed me in the back, sold me up the river. Fucking bitch! 

Fuck my father with his endless grief, standing behind that bar sipping on club sodas, selling whisky to firemen, cheering the Bronx bombers. 

Fuck this whole city and everyone in it. From the row-houses of Astoria to the penthouses on Park Avenue, from the projects in the Bronx to the lofts in Soho. From the tenements in Alphabet City to the brownstones in Park slope to the split-levels in Staten Island. Let an earthquake crumble it, let the fires rage, let it burn to fucking ash and then let the waters rise and submerge this whole rat-infested place… 

No. No, fuck you, Montgomery Brogan. You had it all, and you threw it away, you dumb FUCK!”

PS:   To all the dumb fucks, Fuck You !!!!

A fine balance

I fell down on the floor with blood oozing out of my mouth. A fading image of a man was calling for an ambulance while the rest of the people were watching me.I was put on a stretcher and carried into the ambulance.The pattern of honking sound  of the horn of ambulance was making me dizzy and I was loosing consciousness.


I was sure that It was my last day and started with a thought of rewinding my life from the start. The people I loved, the things I did, the gratitude I owed to people, the mistakes I did, the bitter things, the things I always wanted to do, but never did.


I  felt grateful to my parents to have done so many sacrifices which I didn't acknowledge well till late.I felt great for the friends I had ,who loved me , cherished few of the good experiences with them, the trips , the   weed, alcohol, Goa, strip clubs , the cafes  with tea and smoke, the mistakes I had done to few of them, and the mistakes few have done to me. Its always a fine balance.One thing balances over the other in one or the other way. 


I felt a sudden pain at my arm and tilted my head with all my energy.A nurse was injecting syringe into my arm with antibiotics.I tried remembering my next phase of lyfe and saw it unending.My lyfe will not be coming to an end without her, I thought.The time I spent with her was sheer bliss , I thought.The talks we had, the intimacy we had,the places we went to,I remembered all of them.I have had a photograph of all the moments with her in my mind.The first kiss with her, the first trip with her, the face of her brought a smile on my face , though smiling with a blood oozing around was painful, I took an effort to stretch my muscles.


There were sudden changes in our lives.After our studies, she was posted in a different city I was in.I was a Brahman where as she was catholic christian.She was getting married and I couldn't have imagined my lyfe without her.


Once the image of her faded in my mind, I felt unconscious, but some people were trying to bring me to consciousness. It was my mom, and dad who were crying and at the same time pushing me to be awake.I tried my best, but what best It could have been to my ill-fate.I was not in my control.I saw my best friend along with my parents and felt  relieved.I felt at that moment , that I can live my lyfe for these three people.I made up my mind in few seconds.I want to live.I have done a crazy fucked up thing of giving my lyfe for a girl  who is not even here. I agree that its not a mistake of her,but lyfe isn't that worthless to give it up.There are many things to live the lyfe for, and make a meaning out of it.It finally ends up being a fine balance.Happy with  the sad, good with the bad.I passed out in few seconds.


I was lucky to have lost few bones  and didn't had serious injuries after jumping from 7th floor.It took three months for me to recover and during these three months , I discovered love of my parents and friends.


It always ends in a fine balance.

Confession

Sometimes It feels so good to confess your mistakes  and get things back to the way they were initially.It  is the best feeling one can have.Being stubborn on certain things might make you feel better in short term but long term reflections of being stubborn doesn't fetch  a good feeling. 


Relations are especially a sensitive thing to handle. The art of handling it is a learning which continuously evolves over the time.The negative feeling towards a relationship is not a great thing to have to oneself.It makes a bad person of you which you are not actually by nature.


Lyfe is about being good, doing good and living it to the fullest.It should encompass about what you want to do and nail it finally, and while nailing it, the feeling should be accompanied, cherished and spent along with your close ones.


PS: reminds me of a beautiful movie, "Its a wonderful Lyfe"

I

Who am I, 
what am I here for?
what is my task here?
or am I just  a metaphor?


What do I exist for?
what I have to think for?
do I carry a mission,
or I just have came to snore?


Do I have to carry a journey,
or do I need to reach a destination,
I am still clueless,
for the reason of my manifestation.


am I still a puzzle,
convoluted into a world of mine,
or do need to think of,
a reason of an existence , divine.


Am I an option,
into a world of someone,
or am I a choice,
in a world of mine.


I can't see anything further,
I am devoid of conclusions,
I don't want to find reasons,
I am tired of imitations.




PS: inspired by Robert frost's : Miles to go before I sleep

Dilemma

In the midst of my career to choose things on the constraints I have. I have opportunities and choices to choose from.I have to take decisions but I need to see them and understand well before I choose my career path.My first love seems dying and my second love is fading with respect to time.I need to reincarnate either the first one or else would have to start loving the second one.The decision seems tough one but I need to flow along with the time and choose one and choose it right.

Take away

The journey of MBA which was once my coveted desire is half done.There were many things which I wanted to do and thought of doing it during my MBA.Few of them were wiped out because of things which were not in my control and few I lost control upon.

The learnings are very few and the setbacks are many.

Learning:

• You  will learn to manage things around you. The assignments at MBA which are intended to teach you the learning gets wiped out after  few weeks.You start managing assignments , and once you start doing it , you don't feel like doing them until the professor is very strict.
• Google is the best search engine and excel is the best tool .Experiment with them as much as possible.
• Try gaining interest in one or the other thing, let it be as trivial as playing badminton, squash, cricket, or finance or economics else wise your whole time will be lost in finishing IMDB top 250,Big bang theory or else in alcohol.
• Try reading magazines and build on reading newspaper.The habit set out of boredom will take you long way.
• If you are not short of money, go on exchange program.Either you will have great learning or else the best long holiday trip of your life.
• You start giving your best only when the task of high importance.

Setback :

• Once you start drinking frequently, there is  a very difficult chance of looking back.
• You start wasting your time, Its very difficult to come back to hard work phase.
• You don't care about grades, once you get screwed in few of them.
• If you are a smoker, you smoke too much hurting your lungs at a faster pace.
• You talk too much on things and do very little.
• Topics like politics, entrepreneurship are most common at discussion which ultimately don't lead to anything unless you are very determined to do something of it.
• The fees at MBA narrows your learning perspective  and restricts it to just placements.
• you stop reading good books even though you have all the time in the world.
• You never go to library to check some quality books only because somebody  might mock you for the same
• You start performing bad on the things which were your strengths at one point of time in your life.

The boy

There was a boy who was passionate towards realizing a few set of goals  he set for himself during his graduation days.He thought of  working on each individual goal one by one and realize them. He was hardworking and decently talented and had good commitment until he entered his graduation.


The story starts with his graduation, he develops good  friends and  few bad habits along with it.He gets intoxicated and intoxication makes his goals seem impossible.He tries hard to get out of it, but as they say in every story, he is not able to get rid of it completely.He tried controlling it a bit and in reward to his some of his efforts, God graced him and he realizes one of his goal.


  He joined his masters and this time he was determined to plan well and reach his goals.He remembers one of his favorite quote by Robin Sharma."Planning to fail is failing to plan". He did try working on few things,putting efforts towards his goals, which will help him in doing things which he wants to do further.But as usual, it was more of a early blow of steam and the boy gets back to his world of intoxication.This time the spell is more intense and it looks difficult for the boy to tread along the right path.The boy believes in his capability, but its his complacency and lack of effort which is contributing to the negative energy around him.They boy curses himself  but is not able to get back to the way he used to put efforts.


The boy has to work hard  and get back to his best and realize the goals he has set for himself.Will the boy be able to make it?


PS: The story relates to  few of my friends and along with it, a lot of guys out there who curse themselves for getting off-track

self realization

I am feeling good that I am starting to curse myself and have taken an initiative to work.I have slept enough and do not want to sleep anymore.


I would like to be the way, I was.Work hard on consistent basis.Doing nothing and expecting things to happen based on the past coupled with complacency is not the right way.


I intend to get back to the things I loved to do once. Read a lot of good books, study and play.Enough of intoxication and  I mean it, enough of intoxication.


I will stick to fundamentals.Be honest and speak truth.


I will quit smoking and  smoke only while drinking.




PS: testing myself from tomorrow.

Friends!!!

I intend to know what a term "friendship" is bound  @ an IIM is?


I being an impure person, who is pure in terms of friendship here ?


I know friendship is not bound by just a beer or emotions, but to know exactness or inexactness is the beauty of friendship!!'


I have friends in my engineering (at least few) who will f***** care for my life,  but can i gain some more further in my life further is my question!!!


PS: I am pure @ friendship only!! I don't intend to publicize.My friends do know about me.


PPS: I am drunk :)