I have been the crappy guy right from the childhood. I have done so many messy things, but hats off to my parents, who chide a bit, to bring a good change in me and have been back at me always supporting me.
I owe a lot to them .
i was really a dumb student in the class, but i feel that ,its really my parents consistent hardwork on me (which is not so easy thing on this earth, consistently trying to make me better ) that made me come up some what better, than i was actually in my school days.
In my school days, i got addicted to video gaming and i started burning my dad pockets. I got addicted to such an extent that i even started picking up bucks from my dad wallet.
There is a crazy incident one day . I as usual [:)] picked up a 50 bucks from my dad's wallet and he caught me, red handed. He said me to take the money and go for gaming. i took it and went out. The evening, he brought me the games player, so that he can see any kind of positive change in me.I was too young to grasp the moral that time.
One thing i have a noticed a lot. The way you are brought up is been shaped up by your parents firstly, and by your friends. The parents do a lot , especially father to bring down the son to the right way, constraining from going into wrong paths, and at the same time working hard to fulfill his son desires.
I had fleed away from my home around in 7th , becuase i thought my parents don't want me to realize my ambition , that is ,to be a cricketer.Really those immature things are the ones you cherish when you get big and old.
Last month, when i was filling up slam book, i got to encounter a question
what are your strengths.???
Its not that i havent faced this question before. I have faced this question quite a lot of number of times,at filling my curiculum vitae, in my interviews and many more times. But, to act accordoing to the situation, i have boasted up so many things to justify myself a brillliant , analytical and yet a down to earth guy. After reading up the question, I was curious and i asked my innerself , what actually my strengths are...
The first thing my inner self said is...
who has been the one who has been with you always right from the start???
who are the ones, who will accept almost any of ur mistake..???
Who will be there to think of you all times, always.....??
Who will be the one with you, who always give, without expecting in return??
The next second i answered to my innerself,
bingo, MY PARENTS.
They are my biggest assets, my strengths, my source of constant motivation, my inspiration.
My dad always tries to make my list of desires fulfilled and my mom has always been the loving, the caring, still treating me as a small child cuddling me.
I know , i havent been the best of the son, but DAD and MOM , I LOVE U. :)
PS: I have written a personal post , after a long time. I just felt like doing it, to dedicate one to my parents. :)
Thursday, June 21, 2007
Thursday, June 14, 2007
INTROSPECTION :D
i have been blogging regulary from the start , but from the past two months , i havent blogged at all. Probably iam just not getting any particular thoughts, or iam busy scripting for my first novel.yeah, iam stuffing my first novel.It about me and my friends life.Its about all the messy things i have done along with my friends. Actually we have experienced enough of shit to frame a story. The story with a justified ending( i suppose the ending would be justified).I have a got a source to give my best, to vent out all my thoughts, emotions and philospohy and i would never back down this opportunity(i hope).I have read a blog recently, prescribed by a friend of mine, and some stuff of it really moved me. I was inspired to blog again. Blog back again with my frequency i used to do.
one of the posts of his inspired me to write about many thoughts.It raised a quite a number of questions to my innerself and iam gonna ask it till i get a solution.
I hope i have some time machine which atleast give the solutions which are pending on to the future :)
when would i will be content with my life??
why am i loosing my innocence??
when would i be feeling guilt conscious again??(i used to feel it previosuly, but kind of lost my track a bit now)
why does alcohol makes you to to run away from ethics(sometimes, its the addiction iam talking about)
how does fagging makes you feel , that iam thinking and thinking productive??
when would i start working on my dreams??
is there like something, called perfect match?? (how does that comes into lyfe)
am i living lyfe or am i dying slow???(living is synonymous with freaking and loving life where as dying is synonymous with degrading, adulterating)
am i better now or was better previously??
when would i have control of senses, that is when would i quit from my addictions??
when would my decision influence thousands of people, and my good one would help a thousands!!!!!
when would i get my ideas realized(its ideas iam talking about, not dreams)
Does any change in us leads to good???(dont say that depends on the type of change)
when would i stop thinking in transitional way, that is a blend of two,(i want to think about the things in black or white way, good or bad way)???
what is that one thing for which I can sacrifice my lyfe for??
would i be content with my lyfe when i die???
what exactly is a peaceful death???
Iam habituated to loose everything, but i wouldn't lose upon my ethics, my morals.
one of the posts of his inspired me to write about many thoughts.It raised a quite a number of questions to my innerself and iam gonna ask it till i get a solution.
I hope i have some time machine which atleast give the solutions which are pending on to the future :)
when would i will be content with my life??
why am i loosing my innocence??
when would i be feeling guilt conscious again??(i used to feel it previosuly, but kind of lost my track a bit now)
why does alcohol makes you to to run away from ethics(sometimes, its the addiction iam talking about)
how does fagging makes you feel , that iam thinking and thinking productive??
when would i start working on my dreams??
is there like something, called perfect match?? (how does that comes into lyfe)
am i living lyfe or am i dying slow???(living is synonymous with freaking and loving life where as dying is synonymous with degrading, adulterating)
am i better now or was better previously??
when would i have control of senses, that is when would i quit from my addictions??
when would my decision influence thousands of people, and my good one would help a thousands!!!!!
when would i get my ideas realized(its ideas iam talking about, not dreams)
Does any change in us leads to good???(dont say that depends on the type of change)
when would i stop thinking in transitional way, that is a blend of two,(i want to think about the things in black or white way, good or bad way)???
what is that one thing for which I can sacrifice my lyfe for??
would i be content with my lyfe when i die???
what exactly is a peaceful death???
Iam habituated to loose everything, but i wouldn't lose upon my ethics, my morals.
Thursday, June 07, 2007
MOODS.... :)
Compatibility and Comparability
Compatibility and Comparability----- these two nouns aren’t as simple as they look . I have a very bad habit of finding analogies, and applying them to the weird situations. The things that happens to us and to our surroundings makes us to think on different kinds of analogies which in fact sometimes doesn’t proper fit in our present situations. Still we don’t stop finding the analogies and analyzing them. In fact , it wouldn’t be wrong , If I say that these two terms individually and in together are applicable in almost all concepts .Everything. Lyfe, philosophy, science, law, Politics, social history, psychology i.e almost every facet we are dealing up in our lyfe.
Applying to lyfe, the principles of compatibility and comparability ,the goal or aim we are striving up depends on our compatibility , that is , we tend to check over the potential it requires and the potential we have. Here the relative net potential accounts for the compatibility. Comparability comes in the roll when we tend to surface on the relative approach and relative potential and caliber.
I have discover this concept a few days back and applying this concept to various situations has been funny nd retreating.In fact, applying it to my life has been much funnier i can say. :)
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LYFE SUCKS
To be apt and true in my thoughts, this mechanical life sucks.No one tries to do or be the different. Every one is running over the common(partially me too and i hate me for this). Life is getting crappier and crappier. In fact, a degraded lump, havin no innovativity.The thing is , we are trying to be so optimistic in everything, that we are not efforting for it whole heartedly. Infact we all are following the thought
" optimism - a reflection of skeptism.
If we are doubtful , we are no way thinking on to the hard side of it.We are feeling ourself the best without checking over the reality and and our limitations. We all just want to retreat the life and make it a happy seldom without exactly realizing our thoughts. We know that we are Deviating from our morals , ethics, ideas, aims, goals and still we dont work on it ,to make it any better.
PS: I had an idea of writing a post half in half in two different moods. Seems my mental status after the mood affected the post :)
Compatibility and Comparability----- these two nouns aren’t as simple as they look . I have a very bad habit of finding analogies, and applying them to the weird situations. The things that happens to us and to our surroundings makes us to think on different kinds of analogies which in fact sometimes doesn’t proper fit in our present situations. Still we don’t stop finding the analogies and analyzing them. In fact , it wouldn’t be wrong , If I say that these two terms individually and in together are applicable in almost all concepts .Everything. Lyfe, philosophy, science, law, Politics, social history, psychology i.e almost every facet we are dealing up in our lyfe.
Applying to lyfe, the principles of compatibility and comparability ,the goal or aim we are striving up depends on our compatibility , that is , we tend to check over the potential it requires and the potential we have. Here the relative net potential accounts for the compatibility. Comparability comes in the roll when we tend to surface on the relative approach and relative potential and caliber.
I have discover this concept a few days back and applying this concept to various situations has been funny nd retreating.In fact, applying it to my life has been much funnier i can say. :)
______________________________________________________________________
LYFE SUCKS
To be apt and true in my thoughts, this mechanical life sucks.No one tries to do or be the different. Every one is running over the common(partially me too and i hate me for this). Life is getting crappier and crappier. In fact, a degraded lump, havin no innovativity.The thing is , we are trying to be so optimistic in everything, that we are not efforting for it whole heartedly. Infact we all are following the thought
" optimism - a reflection of skeptism.
If we are doubtful , we are no way thinking on to the hard side of it.We are feeling ourself the best without checking over the reality and and our limitations. We all just want to retreat the life and make it a happy seldom without exactly realizing our thoughts. We know that we are Deviating from our morals , ethics, ideas, aims, goals and still we dont work on it ,to make it any better.
PS: I had an idea of writing a post half in half in two different moods. Seems my mental status after the mood affected the post :)
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