C- Day

Its now or Never. Mother it , As You have never done before :)

Money,money,money :)

Money,money , money
money is the honey.
rich man's funny,
because he has got money.

Money, money , money
money is the honey.
Poor man's agony,
life ending in penny.

poor man's struggle,
to make the ends meet,
rich man's pursual,
to throw a big party to friends indeed.

Poor man's reverie,
to send his children to school,
rich man's fancy,
to buy a country house with a theatre & a large swimming pool.

Poor man's life,
a sum of vexation, and a bit of hope.
rich man's life,
a sum of alcohol,women and dope.

Poor man's death,
a great treat to vultures,
rich man's death,
celebration of death perseveres.

Money,money , money
money is the honey.
rich man's funny,
because he has got money.

Money, money , money
money is the honey.
Poor man's agony,
life ending in penny.

FACT

I hate myself for the things I can't restrain :(

True Love :)

Its been a long time since I met Ajay and I was very happy for meeting him after college. He completed his Masters at MIT after his graduation from JNTU. We met at our home and after he refreshed , we went to Taj to sip some beer. I called Shreya too and she was on her way to Taj.


I mentioned about me getting married to Shreya , the coming month and he was puzzled.He got very curious about how I and Shreya got commited to each other.As I got high of the beer, It reminded me of the most Romantic conversation with her.


"love you till my breathe lasts and after it too", I said.
" love you till my last breath and after it too", Said Shreya.



As you know, we all met her during college days but my feelings for her happened after our graduation. I proposed her . She took a bit of time , and then accepted me.Its been wonderful three years now,and I have been in a great feeling called love.Shreya's parents and my parents are happy for our marriage and Life all seems like the most grateful thing I can have.

We were about to order another beer and Shreya came.We all had a great time talking about college and sipping the beer.It was 10.30 in the night, and Shreya insisted me to wind it up as she was getting late. We finished in 10 minutes and I left with Ajay to my home, while shreya left to her home.It was raining heavily outside.I and Ajay waited for a while, as we came on bike. Shreya insisted that she would drop us home but I said we will manage it ,as her home was around an hour away fom Taj.

In around 15 minutes we reached home. Suddenly Ajay received a call and he said that Shreya had a small accident. We reached hospital, and things around me became dizzy and I fainted.


I was shifted to a ward in an hospital and when I woke up, I asked Ajay about Shreya. He said she is fine and will be discharged tomorrow.I was still curious about her and ran to her ward.I went to doctor, and he said she is in coma , and due to strong hit on her head, It has strongly disturbed her neural activity. She has to be fed, cleaned, for the lifetime.I lost the whole world in front of me.
It has been three months I have been with Shreya after the accident, and I fed , bathed, cleaned and did everything for her.
One day Shreya's parents came to me, and said that they were grateful for my love on shreya, but insisted me that life has to move on. They asked to marry somebody else and assured me that they will take a good care of her. I almost instantly said no, and said I am ready to live with Shreya for my whole life, no matter how shreya is.
Its been 6 years now after the accident, and I am still in love with Shreya. I feed her, bathe her, comb her hair, clean if she is drooling,take her out to places,talk to her, tell about how our love though she cannot comprehend it now,and most importantly still love her, in the hope that someday, she will recover back to normal and my life will be wonderful.

PS: Inspired by a video called "True love" on youtube.

Good and Bad :)

I always try to find , what can be defined good and what can be defined bad.I have been trying to come to a conclusion, but it is very hard to come to one. But as per my retrospection, I have come upon few postulates.


1. Anything which you try to resist upon , but you still tend to do, can be defined bad.
for example: I try to resist from alcohol and smoking, but still haven't been able to take a complete control on it. I promise myself not to get drunk again, but I do it again. This act or habit of mine can be defined bad.


2. Coming to define, what is good, It is anything you don't resist yourself to do, and you do it, is Good. An Intensified Good often evolves into passion.
For example, I love reading, and I don't try to resist it, and sometimes even after I get drunk, i feel like doing it.
Finally , I want to conclude it with four magical lines of Robert frost, which has an analogy with good and bad.


The woods are lovely, dark and deep.
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.

Dark to Bright :)

I had just woke up,
looked around for light,
Couldn't track where was I,
Stuck in absolute darkness.


Then there was some light,
at a place very distant,
I tried making sense of the sound,
But it was very feeble.


I tried a bit harder,
to make sense of the sound,
and heard a male and a female,
curiously discussing upon.

I heard them discussing about life,
heard about good times and bad,
I heard them discussing future,

and the times they were happy and sad.


Suddenly world started making sense,
and i discovered that i was in my mother's womb,
the people discussing my future were,
my great father and my sweet mom.

PS: It was a song written by Telugu actor sai kumar.

Motivating Myself :)

one last time,Seriously one last time.
Enough is enough,
lets retaliate, conquer.
Need to do solid hard work,
need to come on to the top.

Need to be the best.
Show what i have.
like a wounded lion,
need to come back,
come back very very strong.

crack mocks like i have never done.
Toil like I have never done.
Enough of High,the spark would die,
If i go back to high.
Need to buck up,
Wake up Arvind.

perfection is the word,
I should have the choice,
destiny should not be by chance,
I should be able to kick,
I should be able to kiss.

I am definitely not what it reflects,
I know, i have potential to touch the zenith,
but illusions are dragging me down,
I don't want to be a clown,

Master all, not even jack of one.
It can be done.
All i need to show is ,
courage and determination.

PS: just wrote to motivate me :)

WTF

Pissed off.
I am screwed.
Why am i going through hell.
Should i really bother about it.
I really don't care, but,
Why am i still bothered about it,
Alcohol is the best remedy to it !!!!!!,
I am back in the trap,but i know,
I would soon be out of it .
Where is lyfe leading to,
I am really clueless about it,
I have an idea about it,
but i anticipate it to be different,
because its not lyfe,
If its expected ,
Hope is the cause,
Driving the world,
Overcoming difficulties,
acheiving impossibilities,
Being Content.

PS: Random thoughts :)

Betrayal

Why do i shed tear,
When i know you cannot be near,
You wouldn't come to my life again,
Oh my dear, Oh my dear.


I know I have been betrayed,
banal were the moments which together we lived,
All the beautiful things were just faked,
I don't want to live, I want to be dead.


You are sole cause of my dejection,
Who moved me to heights of frustration,
I now regret for our relation,
Even if i ask you,you don't have any explanation.


All I do is now cry and cry,
I take drugs, Hallucinate , to substitute your high,
I don't have anything left,
I just want to die, I just want to die.


Though betrayed , I still love you,
You are my insanity,I want you,
You are the only one, Without you,
There is nothing that I can do



PS: Just an effort or try to understand the feelings of person who had a love failure :)

Great , Greater, Greatest :)

A sequel to my last blogpost.

An alcoholic high this time, though, not the marijuana. :)

Still in search of, what does it take to be great?

I am actually puzzled about how did Ayn rand had her thoughts a century back , which she published in her books!

We still get mesmerized by her books.

How did those thoughts come to her mind!!!

Did she encountered them practically or she saw it through her experience or she was one of the gifted souls.

I regret taking birth a hundred years later.

Its not about just Ayn Rand, it about a lot of people who started simple and ended up so great, so great, that they are a subject of talk till now.

I am talking about Aristotle, Socrates, Albert Einstien, Stephen Hawking, Ayn Rand, and a lot more till now.

What did they have and how did they evolve to get better and better, better than the best, not only of their centuries but the centuries ahead too, till the centuries which had those great people as their benchmark!!!

Will continue the subject in my next one . :)

LYFE....makes sense????

Sometimes I feel i will wrap and control the whole world on my fingers.My insatiable desires would be at my feet. I would make a difference. I have something in myself which separates me from the crowd.

Very next second , I feel very ordinary about myself, not making any f***** difference, involved in my own narrow world, with my dead monotonous lyfe.

What does it take to be great.?

I am still in search of it.

Sometimes if i feel the existence of God, i wonder how did he invent marijuana, which later was discovered by man!!!

Emotions fly from the positive side to negative and so is the Lyfe.

I am seriously clueless about what sentences my mind really wants my fingers to type and what exactly is being typed!!!

All i know is , i want to beat this world, the successful people , and want to leave them far behind .

PS: marijuana at its peak, forced me :)