Saturday, January 20, 2007

EMOTIONAL FOOLS (this is for u [:[)] )

DUMB & NUMB


Perturbed by the emotions,

Confused by the notations,

Lost in the deep jungle of imagination,

I am still striving for my conviction,

Without checking over the complications,

Leaving me with no options,

And kill out my navigations.




Everything is going above head,

Nothing is going the way, its said,

Everything is seeming so odd,

There is nothing to which I can hold,

I think I am living dead.




Everything is on the air,

There are many things I should do, alas, I cant dare,

Everything seems so distant , nothing is near,

bring me to life , oh dear,

I don’t have the liberty to cry a river.






PS : this seems so funny and hilarious. I tried to crap a poem and this turned out to be a complete kindergarten school " RHYMING POEM " . anyhow..done wid my poem, so its your turn to bear it now.I think i can coin a new word which you gonna sense and feel after seeing my blog regularly "BLOGOPHOBIA". [:D]

Friday, January 05, 2007

Kith & Kin.....

Sometimes when we look back over the relations ,relations we are in, relations we expect to happen, relations we expect to blossom, relations we want to fade out(there are some things we want to escape from) , relations which fade out with time ,without our control though we don’t want them to fade out , relations we expect to go on as the life goes on. Of all the relations, we expect some of them to be special. Its human's most common trait. He is expected to do crazy odd things otherwise he wouldn’t be called human. We try to seek intimacy from fairer sex but most of the times, things go in vain leaving us frustrated. The human mindset is such that, though things are difficult and impossible to him, the things seem to be easy and moderately difficult to him. He doesn’t tend to give up till he completely drowns into the whirl giving him no chance to come out , drowning him completely into the deep depths.. The analyzing part of his , tries to, make him new experiments everyday. Not everyone, but some of his analyzing experiments get launched. The imaginary illusionary fantasy part of his awakes and gives rise to different products in his mind besides some useful by products.

Each relationship has a time frame, which might had been decided before hand or decided by the situations the relationship grows/ falls into. Usually, the time frame is till the purpose has been served to either one or both the individuals involved in the relationship. But there are some relationships which don’t stand for a purpose. There are some relations which have no purpose element at the backdrop. It has affection, care, love and pamper element.In this relation, there is just the affection and love element and there's no more added element involved in this kind of relations. Relation between a parent and child, relation between siblings, relation between a happy couple , relation between best friends do stand on as examples for this kind of relations.

The everything you try to involve in , may be a relationship, a thing for which you are really desperate of, any attempt for a big achievement for which you are desperate in your life, its Only when you realize the reason behind your want, which shows your desperateness to achieve it. The stronger your reason to achieve the desired thing, the more desperate you are to achieve it.


Of all the relations , the purest is between a mother and child. the tenderness , the purity ,the insanity which exists between a mother for his/her child cannot be observed anywhere. Just observe the affection of a mother when the child is ill or been hurt. The worry element on her shows the extent and degree of the motherness. The care of her on the child is heavenly ,In fact defining the motherness and the mother’s affection in a single word wouldn’t be possible. motherness is the quality of a goddess which tries to fulfill every wish or boon of the child ,though the wish is impossible to fulfill for her.

The next comes , the relationship between a father and the child. The father tries to be the guide of the child till the end of the journey ,chiding him sometimes to resist him from going into the wrong paths, helping him sometimes in the difficulties ,inspiring him sometimes. He is the caretaker of the child’s career , the guiding hand. Though sometimes the form of relationship differs from a father & daughter and a father & son , but at the end the things are very close to differentiate.

The relationship between siblings is one of its kind. They fight, laugh, talk ,share secrets which cannot be shared with parents (sometimes some thoughts cannot be revealed to parents). There is a lot of friendship element in the siblings relation. The transparency appears so well in the relation. The chemistry between them is really amazing.

Though being in such a hearty relations, the male element still strives for the female element(sometimes the flip side of it also happens), and the transformation in his thinking can be noticed. Even the transformation in his thoughts and thinking follows a particular law which hasn’t been discovered yet. (I am in serious search and research for that law, so that to find it out and grab the Nobel ) The possessiveness and intimacy towards the counterpart increases exponentially. Then the actual drama begins. The law is – the mindset of the male fraction complete depends on the response of female fraction towards him and the reaction of her towards him proportionately and exponentially influences the mindset of male fraction after the response. The half life concept is also applicable to this poor guy. The decay of him is directly proportional to the amount of alcohol he consumes. [:D]

If the result is at least partially affirmative , the amount of time he wastes doing crap is really a fast and high going skyscraper with respect to time.…similar to the curve of a fast growing software MNC like GOOGLE or YAHOO. The heart starts taking control on him leaving the poor brain behind.

In fact every common guy wants heart to rule over rather than the intelligent mind or brain. We tend to give a little soft corner to heart rather than brain. May be this is because heart makes us to do what we like without applying any logistics , reasoning and all, rather like brain which tends to do everything logically. Just like in a theory, where in there are ideal and practical cases, Heart can be attributed to ideal case, we love to follow them , but in most of the cases they don’t happen. At the maximum, the result tends to be maximized( near ideal)giving optimized efficiency. On the other side, the thoughts of mind are practical, can be applied and can give you results when applied with brain, reasoning etc. Still we go with heart rather than with mind. Poor mind always turns up on the loosing lonely side when compared to heart.

This experience ( the whirl he had fallen in) if stays for a long time, post effect teaches him to be practical and logical(after the failure) .This way the things go on. Therefore, We should try to analyze and introspect over the things once in a while , but repeated analyzing makes us confused ( more than we actually are) and frustrated. Just try to live the life and introspect it once in a while. Have one or two friends who can bear you and hear you[:)] till the end of the journey. Relations have a lot of significance in the aftermath , so try to keep the relations as healthy as possible.

Finally, Just live the life, if you are feared to analyze it.

JUST............ LIVE LIFE,STOP ANALYZING.

PS:Thoughts flowing in mind.These thoughts are post CAT .Any kind of regret or gloomy element in me makes to blog.Actually when things are gloomy , you do only two B's. The first is blogging and second is......(You might have guessed) .These are really great remedies to vent out your crap. Thoughts iterating in the mind again and again but no solution to these thoughts even after infinite iterations.Have a number of hopes and aspirations but donno know when gotta have them fulfilled. I wish, i have a TIME MACHINE so that i can discern my future and try to have control on it instead of analyzing the future.(:D)