Can we change???!!!!!!!

I have seen an instance today  where anybody powerful cannot reform or change the things around him.Does system need to change or do we to?? I have been to place where skin is sold and figuratively employment is generated. To elaborate on this fact, a system more robust than a revenue generated administrative service exists, where a penny is even accountable.Its a robust industry of more than 1000 crore where people satiate their desires, where queue larger than a root level  ration card queue exists. So its finally on to the people, that is we, who either encourage it or discourage it.I am very sure that an IAS would loose his life , if he intend to change things around him. But would that discourage the people around him who intend to make the change.


      Its an incident which happened at a well known area in Delhi(110006, reminds me of the movie Delhi-6) where human values do not exist and materialistic and libidinous values are satiated. The expected thing with the kind of political system we have around is, nobody will take an effort to change it and if he/she intends to change it, he/she will be no more.


     One more considerable fact i have noticed at the place is , it comprises of around  70% of Nepalese ,which is being heavily contributed by the migration factor, which needs to be strongly addressed.
  
    The whole point lies in the fact that , there are lots of thoughts around and too less action. We need to introspect on the fact that do system need to change or  we, the people, who belong to the system, need to change to bring in the change in the system.

MBA Interviews :)

a month of travelling , 
boasting about myself, 
in  an expectation that,
I will be adopted!!!

Some ask what,
some ask why,
some ask when,
I know? , I have to lie?


Thermodynamics 2nd law,
Laplace transform applications,
telecom minister Raja,
Has been reason for many people rejections.


Are ambani's made/Manufactured at (b)skools,
Or are we just another million fools,
Whatever be the reason,
the packages are at which everyone drools.


I want to enter,
with an intention to clean the mess,
and I come out ,
to be dumped into another mess.


PS: to all B-school aspirants trying to geared for B-school Interviews :)

Transform??

Of  late I see everyone defining life in their perspective.I smile and sometimes giggle at them.Its not that i am more rational or smarter than them, but the moment i see someone quoting on life, I feel it funny.There is a paradox here . I once was obsessed with word "lyfe". But now I feel it funny.Somebody talking philosophical sounds funny to me.Earlier, I was obsessed with the same .


Some sort of mental transformation happening around .Its for the good though. It might help in becoming more objective. Anyways, iam  doing it  not out of selfishness towards becoming objective , but rather, i guess its happening sub-conciously.It feels good to blog after a long time :)

C- Day

Its now or Never. Mother it , As You have never done before :)

Money,money,money :)

Money,money , money
money is the honey.
rich man's funny,
because he has got money.

Money, money , money
money is the honey.
Poor man's agony,
life ending in penny.

poor man's struggle,
to make the ends meet,
rich man's pursual,
to throw a big party to friends indeed.

Poor man's reverie,
to send his children to school,
rich man's fancy,
to buy a country house with a theatre & a large swimming pool.

Poor man's life,
a sum of vexation, and a bit of hope.
rich man's life,
a sum of alcohol,women and dope.

Poor man's death,
a great treat to vultures,
rich man's death,
celebration of death perseveres.

Money,money , money
money is the honey.
rich man's funny,
because he has got money.

Money, money , money
money is the honey.
Poor man's agony,
life ending in penny.

FACT

I hate myself for the things I can't restrain :(

True Love :)

Its been a long time since I met Ajay and I was very happy for meeting him after college. He completed his Masters at MIT after his graduation from JNTU. We met at our home and after he refreshed , we went to Taj to sip some beer. I called Shreya too and she was on her way to Taj.


I mentioned about me getting married to Shreya , the coming month and he was puzzled.He got very curious about how I and Shreya got commited to each other.As I got high of the beer, It reminded me of the most Romantic conversation with her.


"love you till my breathe lasts and after it too", I said.
" love you till my last breath and after it too", Said Shreya.



As you know, we all met her during college days but my feelings for her happened after our graduation. I proposed her . She took a bit of time , and then accepted me.Its been wonderful three years now,and I have been in a great feeling called love.Shreya's parents and my parents are happy for our marriage and Life all seems like the most grateful thing I can have.

We were about to order another beer and Shreya came.We all had a great time talking about college and sipping the beer.It was 10.30 in the night, and Shreya insisted me to wind it up as she was getting late. We finished in 10 minutes and I left with Ajay to my home, while shreya left to her home.It was raining heavily outside.I and Ajay waited for a while, as we came on bike. Shreya insisted that she would drop us home but I said we will manage it ,as her home was around an hour away fom Taj.

In around 15 minutes we reached home. Suddenly Ajay received a call and he said that Shreya had a small accident. We reached hospital, and things around me became dizzy and I fainted.


I was shifted to a ward in an hospital and when I woke up, I asked Ajay about Shreya. He said she is fine and will be discharged tomorrow.I was still curious about her and ran to her ward.I went to doctor, and he said she is in coma , and due to strong hit on her head, It has strongly disturbed her neural activity. She has to be fed, cleaned, for the lifetime.I lost the whole world in front of me.
It has been three months I have been with Shreya after the accident, and I fed , bathed, cleaned and did everything for her.
One day Shreya's parents came to me, and said that they were grateful for my love on shreya, but insisted me that life has to move on. They asked to marry somebody else and assured me that they will take a good care of her. I almost instantly said no, and said I am ready to live with Shreya for my whole life, no matter how shreya is.
Its been 6 years now after the accident, and I am still in love with Shreya. I feed her, bathe her, comb her hair, clean if she is drooling,take her out to places,talk to her, tell about how our love though she cannot comprehend it now,and most importantly still love her, in the hope that someday, she will recover back to normal and my life will be wonderful.

PS: Inspired by a video called "True love" on youtube.

Good and Bad :)

I always try to find , what can be defined good and what can be defined bad.I have been trying to come to a conclusion, but it is very hard to come to one. But as per my retrospection, I have come upon few postulates.


1. Anything which you try to resist upon , but you still tend to do, can be defined bad.
for example: I try to resist from alcohol and smoking, but still haven't been able to take a complete control on it. I promise myself not to get drunk again, but I do it again. This act or habit of mine can be defined bad.


2. Coming to define, what is good, It is anything you don't resist yourself to do, and you do it, is Good. An Intensified Good often evolves into passion.
For example, I love reading, and I don't try to resist it, and sometimes even after I get drunk, i feel like doing it.
Finally , I want to conclude it with four magical lines of Robert frost, which has an analogy with good and bad.


The woods are lovely, dark and deep.
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.

Dark to Bright :)

I had just woke up,
looked around for light,
Couldn't track where was I,
Stuck in absolute darkness.


Then there was some light,
at a place very distant,
I tried making sense of the sound,
But it was very feeble.


I tried a bit harder,
to make sense of the sound,
and heard a male and a female,
curiously discussing upon.

I heard them discussing about life,
heard about good times and bad,
I heard them discussing future,

and the times they were happy and sad.


Suddenly world started making sense,
and i discovered that i was in my mother's womb,
the people discussing my future were,
my great father and my sweet mom.

PS: It was a song written by Telugu actor sai kumar.

Motivating Myself :)

one last time,Seriously one last time.
Enough is enough,
lets retaliate, conquer.
Need to do solid hard work,
need to come on to the top.

Need to be the best.
Show what i have.
like a wounded lion,
need to come back,
come back very very strong.

crack mocks like i have never done.
Toil like I have never done.
Enough of High,the spark would die,
If i go back to high.
Need to buck up,
Wake up Arvind.

perfection is the word,
I should have the choice,
destiny should not be by chance,
I should be able to kick,
I should be able to kiss.

I am definitely not what it reflects,
I know, i have potential to touch the zenith,
but illusions are dragging me down,
I don't want to be a clown,

Master all, not even jack of one.
It can be done.
All i need to show is ,
courage and determination.

PS: just wrote to motivate me :)

WTF

Pissed off.
I am screwed.
Why am i going through hell.
Should i really bother about it.
I really don't care, but,
Why am i still bothered about it,
Alcohol is the best remedy to it !!!!!!,
I am back in the trap,but i know,
I would soon be out of it .
Where is lyfe leading to,
I am really clueless about it,
I have an idea about it,
but i anticipate it to be different,
because its not lyfe,
If its expected ,
Hope is the cause,
Driving the world,
Overcoming difficulties,
acheiving impossibilities,
Being Content.

PS: Random thoughts :)

Betrayal

Why do i shed tear,
When i know you cannot be near,
You wouldn't come to my life again,
Oh my dear, Oh my dear.


I know I have been betrayed,
banal were the moments which together we lived,
All the beautiful things were just faked,
I don't want to live, I want to be dead.


You are sole cause of my dejection,
Who moved me to heights of frustration,
I now regret for our relation,
Even if i ask you,you don't have any explanation.


All I do is now cry and cry,
I take drugs, Hallucinate , to substitute your high,
I don't have anything left,
I just want to die, I just want to die.


Though betrayed , I still love you,
You are my insanity,I want you,
You are the only one, Without you,
There is nothing that I can do



PS: Just an effort or try to understand the feelings of person who had a love failure :)

Great , Greater, Greatest :)

A sequel to my last blogpost.

An alcoholic high this time, though, not the marijuana. :)

Still in search of, what does it take to be great?

I am actually puzzled about how did Ayn rand had her thoughts a century back , which she published in her books!

We still get mesmerized by her books.

How did those thoughts come to her mind!!!

Did she encountered them practically or she saw it through her experience or she was one of the gifted souls.

I regret taking birth a hundred years later.

Its not about just Ayn Rand, it about a lot of people who started simple and ended up so great, so great, that they are a subject of talk till now.

I am talking about Aristotle, Socrates, Albert Einstien, Stephen Hawking, Ayn Rand, and a lot more till now.

What did they have and how did they evolve to get better and better, better than the best, not only of their centuries but the centuries ahead too, till the centuries which had those great people as their benchmark!!!

Will continue the subject in my next one . :)

LYFE....makes sense????

Sometimes I feel i will wrap and control the whole world on my fingers.My insatiable desires would be at my feet. I would make a difference. I have something in myself which separates me from the crowd.

Very next second , I feel very ordinary about myself, not making any f***** difference, involved in my own narrow world, with my dead monotonous lyfe.

What does it take to be great.?

I am still in search of it.

Sometimes if i feel the existence of God, i wonder how did he invent marijuana, which later was discovered by man!!!

Emotions fly from the positive side to negative and so is the Lyfe.

I am seriously clueless about what sentences my mind really wants my fingers to type and what exactly is being typed!!!

All i know is , i want to beat this world, the successful people , and want to leave them far behind .

PS: marijuana at its peak, forced me :)

Love :)

I have been in love with you,

I can do anything on this world for you,

You are the one thing i deserve life for,

you will last for me till my last breathe do.

From the very first moment i met you,

You are my insanity, i felt i really love you,

The moments i spent with you,

are the one i would never forget i know.

I am not so interesting and,

and you are not so beautiful either,

i don't care the concept of soulmates either,

but surely, we are made for each other.

PS: Marijuana after ages :)

Do we need to believe in God?

We all believe that we have took birth to do a certain task assigned to us by God.God has already decided our fate and lyfe and we adhere to it. We were in some other form in our last lyfe and would be in a certain way depending on the way we do good or bad in this lyfe.This is the principle written in Bhagvad Gita.

Belief in God is a sensitive topic and proving or disproving of it, reaching to a definite conclusion is very difficult.

But I am interested in giving my view points with respect to it and if people get offended by it, I apologize in prior for it.

1. personally I don't like to believe in God. It has a few reasons which might be wrong but let me put my points in a logic so that it makes some sense. As far as my experience is concerned, blind belief in God doesn't prove its point. The belief in humanity makes a bigger sense. If we are supposed to do any task which is blasphemous and it helps a lot of people in a very good way, then we should go for it, rather than backing from it due to our belief in God.

Humanity is greater religion than any other religion. Compassion should be the foremost priority rather than any other priority.

2. I have seen people who do all the malicious things in the world, that is, kill somebody, extort, kidnap and finally at the end of the day, pray to god to forgive their sins. God loses his significance there. If God should have exist, He/she should have been punished by God much early so that he/she shouldn't be commiting more malicious things and by not doing this ,God is allowing a lot of good people to be scapegoats.

3. If there has been one God, it would have been better to believe at. As there are so many Gods, hence so many religions, people killed each other in the name of religion and God , wanting to prove that their God is superior.People still kill each other and will kill each other in the name of God and religion.This is certainly bad. If there has been no belief of God, religions wouldn't have been there and hence ruthless killing of people hungry to prove the superiority of their religion wouldn't have been there.

4.Actually lots of great books teach a lot of good things to follow, but a lot of things in them have been misinterpreted and the people wage wars in the name of these sacred titles, to prove their ridiculous points.

5.If we are able to do things rationally,ensuring that people don't get harm by us, then it isn't mandate that, we should believe in God.

A girl :)

filled with your dreams,
you are my passion,
can't live with you,
do i need to mention.


The first time i saw you
i found myself in a magic spell,
lots of things to convey you,
but i sware,i don't have any guts to tell.



ohh my girl,i do see,
you have been changing the world around me,
There is nothing i can do,
I have been hallucinated by you.


You are my life ,
you are my zenith.
I only want to live with you,
give me just one chance , and i will prove it .


PS;few posts after being into TCS ilp. wrote most of them while i was feeling sleepy in the class :)

Optimism

A raindrop,
finding its way,
deep down in the sea,
to become pearl someday.



Live lyfe,
in your way,
give your best,
and don't care of what people have to say.



live your lyfe with lots of love,
and no room for anger and dismay,
have some passion, work on it,
and success will surely kiss one day.



Lyfe is bitchy,a few things happen your way,
and a lot of things the other way,
but live it as an optimist,
to live lyfe to the fullest.

Sea-shore

Sitting at the sea shore,
looking at the tides,
reminds me of the lyfe,
beautiful and wide.


One wave catches many other,
combines,joins and becomes bigger,
doesn't care of what it has,
hits the rock with all it has.


looking far at the sea,
where the water and the sky are same at the infinity,
God is such a wonder,
to design it with such a creativity,
is it reality or a reverie,
to be blessed upon with such a beauty.


Walking on the beach,holding hands, each other,
and waves hitting the legs often,
sitting at the sea-shore with her,
looking at the beautiful dipping of the sun.


God i owe you a lot,
for the nature so beautiful and so her,
i want this life eternally,
me , her and the mother nature.

Hope :)

Lots of things running in my mind,
lots of tasks to complete before i wind,
need an aim to live, hope i find,
before i wind, before i wind.


Should find a love,find a passion,
which would keep me happy and stunning,
Hope is the only thing which keeps me running,
doesn't matter you are losing or winning.


walking on the beach, hands in hands ,
with the girl i love,
Having a smoke, while reading the book,
at a place so isolated,
are the things which keep me spiritied.


Love the lyfe,because there is
nothing better than it,
live the every moment forever,
because its no worth,
feeling dejected about it.