CONFESSION -- a preconceived notion

We generally confess our guilts expecting certain outcome from the other side.We think logically of the outcome and then to gain that outcome we tend to confess the guilts.This is not a confession but clever estimation of the things to gain the ball in our court..Confession in true sense is accepting the guilts without thinking of the outcome , being innocently honest.Then the true sense of CONFESSION is accomplished.



Some times i really wonder....are we truthful to ourselves atleast or we are just boosting over the things to show that we are super sensible.The things we think and the actions we perform have a kinematic link between them with degree of freedom three[:D](even i couldnt understand the logic for degree of freedom)
Thought and action are two very similar things.....the difference between them is we tend to back up from our thought by illusion or some other means where as there is no room or chance for us to escape from action. Thought can be said as immediate present and the action its very immediate future.So we should think sensible enough to make that action count or else...the outcome is crappy unproductive act.This reminds me of the punchline of WIPRO.... applying thought.So we should apply over the thoughts and make those thoughts into a productive act.
We should not back up from our thought if we are really determined for it.

THINK THE THING YOU THINK,
TILL THE MIND BLINK.

We should be passionate enough to show our madness towards it.Consistency and hardwork is the key to carve your path to success.Have someone your idol and put up a consistent efffort to work like him.(not being like him).
Keep having a constant source of inspiration and motivation.


for all your days prepare,
and meet them ever alike,
when you are the anvil,bear;
when you are the hammer,strike

Just wait for the right opportunity to come and give your best shot to it.GIVE UR BEST SHOT...ELSE DESTINY DECIDES...This again reminds me one of my all time favourite song...eminem's ......LOSE YOURSELF...

one shot , do not miss the chance to blow,
oppurtunity comes, once in a lifetime,you better know.



but even after giving your best shot, you couldnt get any near to it , then the best thing to do is....follow the hungry fox principle,THE GRAPES ARE SOUR.There is nothing wrong in accepting your defeat or mistakes.I say acceptance make you feel guilt and this makes you overcome that mistake desperately.
you need to have atleast two lifetime friends(besides your parents and the better half) who are ready to bear you till the end of the journey.
I know that iam very bad at doing or preaching good,but still wanted to bring out some of my crappy thoughts.There are still a lot of crappy thoughts running in my mind....kicking me to convert them into unproductive acts, but kudos to me, iam still holding strong enough to bind my unproductive crappy thoughts in the vestegial part of my brain(donno where is the vestigial area of brain....instead i think whole of my brain is vestigial ) [:D] .I Still want to hold my thoughts long enough and vent them out when the right time comes..
If you are lucky enough to find your intimacy and acquaintance element in the early stage of your life, the probabilities of you making big are really high.To me,
------------------------LIFE IS A COM-PROMISE---------------------------------
compromise doesnt mean getting adjusted to things,but this word has much more meaning.Etymologically,COM means together and promise is keeping of a word.Being so close or having so much affinity to share ur close things.So COM-PROMISE is being together,living together developing affinity towards each other.It shows getting together,developing the affinity element with time.It is being intimate,having the tacit chemistry where you can understand everything of your mate without any involvement of the verbal part.So keep looking for that intimate element in your life.
I want to make my life count and that too on a big(real big) platform.Lets see if life permits me to come out with flying colours.
This post might be a bit boring...but iam really convinced for substantiating(CONFESSING) my crappy thoughts over here..So i think now the title is justified, Dont you?
..............................KEEP LIVING LIFE, STOP ANALYZING.............................................adios[:)]

COMPLICATED......... my crap in poetic form......:)

Sometimes the things in life go so complex.....and bizzare.....that you tend to..... stop thinking productive....and you will think just crappy.In this poem,iam trying to express frustation in a poetic or ballad form.This poem kind of thing is little bit inspired from the GOD looking gal ...Avril lavigne . She really rocks....great singer.....wid great looks nd great attitude....this poem tries to explain the frustation of a boy for a gal ........





i look, but you dont look at me,
i like, but you dont like me,
all things are going so dizzy,
thoughts are going so crappy,
why do all the things in the life get so complicated,
she is like an oscar where i dont get nominated,


my thoughts all over for you,
my life just made for you,
these thoughts are making me so frustated,
why do all the things in the life get so complicated,

iam going just mad for you,
i say i cant live without you,
i know all this is foolish,
but still cant get out of it,
your image is making me so captivated,
why do all the things in the life get so complicated...................


I have tried all kind of stuff,
i have tried smoking
i have even tried boozing,
but nothing makes me as wild as you make me addicted,
why do all the things in the life get so complicated,







This is my first silly attempt to write silly thoughts in a poetic fashion. I know it sounds so childish but still wanted to bring out a very very poor poet in me.... i know i am not gonna get any compliments for this, so waiting for hard crtitcs to comment on this poor stuff....... c ya.........

A Lav triangle, splitted at every angle.....

The boy was completely new to the place....far....very far from the place…where his home used to be.The new place made him cozy and uncomfortable,where all different kinds of souls were gazing this boy, the glutton guy,the lean short fellow, a gal with really cute preity (pretty) dimples, a gal wid really cute smile but with awkward spectacles of the thickness of binoculars,a stout gal, who was looking ready to go to score the next gold medal in weightlifting in the coming Olympics…which our poor country INDIA has been desperately trying to whittle.

To the boys good luck, the souls that were gazing at him , turned the other side, while a voice was keep on running at a high pitch in the new place.The boy was not at all listening to the voice. It was now his turn to look over , to take a glance of the souls which were gazing at him till now.This became his daily schedule for many days..Till he got aquainted to the souls along with him.

The boy was really bad at mathematics,so he joined tutions to improve at his numbers, which he was so bad at.The boy was really fond of the idiot box(as he had no idea of the networking world that time,which he later got to knew,and his addiction shifted towards networking from idiot box), than working on numbers. The boy got to knew the different human emotions by watching number of things on the idiot box, and the fusion of his thoughts,along with his confused minded thinking made him know the crappeist[some say its the best, while it has been the one thing right one time, and the other, the other time] emotion, which we call "LAV".The boy was noticing a gal while the same gal was constantly noticing the boy(though the boy was not that good looking) and this lead the confused curious mind of the boy felt the superhuman emotion called "LAV".The boy somehow could manage to top the class, while thinking of all the crap stuff(which he downloaded directly into his mind from the idiot box).Anyhow due the exams and stuff, the boy couldnt effort on his mind to think about the crap stuff much and so,this made his first infactuation("LAV") boil out from his mind.He was at that time too young and confused mind to think seriusly about this stuff.

As soon as he was done wid his 10th, he was thrown into a so called college, were he had just the correct time to make up for his studies, and for his friends.So he had almost forgotten the gal.The boy though not that talented ,was lucky enough to get into one of the premier colleges.The boy was good at making good friends, and he found some good friends who matched his frequency. The destiny had something different to write in the boy's fate. a latter gal entered into the boy's life.The boy was really desperate to have this gal, whom he really liked true from his heart. The boy approached the latter gal through a wrong way, and made some mistakes.Meanwhile the boy met the former gal accidentally and the gal invited him to a coffee nearby.They had a gud conversation cherishing school life memories, and then ,at sudden, the tone of the gal changed.The boy didnt expected the gal would say this, but this made him put in dilemma...to choose one of the two...The former gal who has been a good buddy to him ..who made the boy felt the superemotion first time in his life, or the gal who he has been desperate of.

The boy anyhow could manage to come up to a decision and after thinking a lot ,rejected the former gal. Meanwhile the boy was having sour time wid the latter gal and the things with her just faded away very fast with time.The boy could somehow managed to come out of the trans(really a brave boy).

The boy was now introspecting over the things.he felt he was in a love triangle, which now in course of time splitted into each angle. The angles being the former gal, the latter gal and thirdly, his life without any one of the two in his life.The boy who was now a good thinker, after getting practicality, was real happy with the third angle life.(though the boy was still holding a chance of approaching former gal again, still chances are good there,but the boy didnt gave try again to former gal again).

But still the boy had doubts which he wanted to put before the people, and to find his decision of going along with the third angle life was better than the other two decisions.So if you people are in the same position the boy had been, which angle had you gone along wid....Which angle life would have made the boy's life better.To go once again for the FORMER gal, to give again a try for the LATTER gal or just go along with time with the third angle.

post your comments on my attempt to write a STORY kind of thing.......ADIOS

me nd my philos....nd spirituality

I have been thinking hard for a nice juicy topic from the past many days but finally settled on to this worldly topic on which every person is trying to give his stuff and trying to define in his way.

I think , In general, people would consider this post boring than the past two, but i always like to talk on this kind of stuff, So its me, giving my try.

In my terms, spirituality and philosophy are the two important parameters in evreryone's life to make your thought process better and practical ideal(practical ideal means the solution which is nearly ideal solution but definitely practical).

Recently i was boozing along with my friends and one of my friend said,life is not a game of chance, but life is game of choice.I found this thought quite amazing. I really want to make my life count, and that too in my way. I don’t want to change my life for some crapper.One thing i want to say is don't let yourself to change completely because of somebody, just improvise. This improvization can be possible by introspecting on regular basis.

To me , the element that firstly counts to me in any person is attitude but not character. I think if you have attitude element, the character element is inherent. So trying to work on the attitude element will make your most of the things set right in your life.
Around 3 or 4 years back, i used to wonder and get puzzled for many things. There were many things , i used to hate them that time, and now ,the same things are my life, my passion.. Some of the things i used to wonder were, how can people read 500 or 600 pages of a novel, leaving all other intresting things behind. How can the people read tomes on idealism and spirituality. How can people talk hours and hours on boring spirituality. But to my amusement, these are the same things I am very passionate now. This four years of my engineering didnt gave me any great tag or degree or any great achievement( though provided me employment), but one thing I am really sure is, it improved my thought process a lot. It brought a kind of maturity in my thoughts. There are some of my close buddies, which are also responsible for improvement of my thought process.I cant name them as my ego doesnt allow me to do it(just kiddin, )

To me, spirituality has nothing to do with God....it all deals with making your life better,thought process better,live more lively and doing some good things.Some books which really moved me are The Old Neighbourhood by Avory Korman, Who Will Cry When You Die by Robin Sharma,Tuesdays With Morrie by Mitch Albom, The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho.Iam sure you read one of these books, you gonna learn very much from them, and atleast one of these gonna move you.
I have seen an equation some where, and i truly believe it.

Philosophy + science= religion.

Religion has nothing to with caste and creeds, the sucking bloody barriers, but this term is of mucher higher plane.Learning up from life and thinking reasonably and logically, helping people, being compassionate is the Universal religion.

To me , life is all about freaking at your first half,analyzing and working out your ass for your passion, being compassionate, in the later half.The aftermath of first half of your life will teach you , how to whittle ,score in the second half of your life.

So keep LIVING LIFE,AND STOP ANALYZING........ ...cos there is lot of time left to analyze it,for now JUST LIVE THE LIFE.
adios for now...dont forget to post your comments....

retrospect...review..passions....

Done with my first blog and i got the reviews of it..the theme of the blog(story) was good, but need to increase my approach towards the reader...any how critics are must, so that to get better on the things i messed upon..

So i will try to be a bit proffesional nd sophisticated in this post.

In this post, i want to tell you about my fanatasies, my weird dreams and passions and my crappy thoughts.

I do have the exact idea ...about how my life should be, but gaining control on my life, with such creepy and wierd passions and dreams would be just like finding the exact value of square root of -1.My policy in life is to taste every bloody thing , be it bad or good, beacause you just have only one life to do all the things, and if all good deeds are done in this life, where is the room for the bad things you havent done.How could you know that its really bad and it should not be done , if you dont do it..

Coming to my dreams, i had the dream of being a cricketer at first(which almost 95% of the people have in their childhood).A bit later got a bit bored of cricket and then thought of being a scientist, around in 9th class(after knowing that nobel laurates are one of the richest people and are given huge amount of money after scoring nobel prize)., but to my fate, iam ending up being an engineer.

Iam a bit into reading, these days ,from nearly one year, kudos to my supersenior sharma, who worked on me ,a lot, to install(haha) the habit of reading in me.The first book i have read was five point someone, and it was a great start to reading . Now i have given my try on non fictional and spiritual stuff and i can bet they are the most amazing stuff on this earth.If a nice pile of non fiction books are given to me and iam left alone anywhere on this earth(even without fairer sex) , i can assure you that i can survive over there. One thing i really like in me is the habit of analyzing people.i love doing this crap though this crap led me to many difficulties.

Iam a movie fantasizer and i love watching good movies, though iam not that much into english movies, but of the english movies i have watched, A beautiful mind of russel crowe moved me the most.I also like french kiss, minority report and bruce almighty.Iam lot into watching bollywood stuff and there are so many movies on the list which inspired me,moved me,titilated me smittened me. major of them are Black, lakshya, Rang de basanthi.. and lots more.

One more thing iam really passionate about is music, without which i cant live.I love listening to english stuff.They really make sense....especially avril lavigne, eminem and lot more crappy people which i think iam too lazy to mention over here.

i like play tennis, cricket and table tennis and these days iam playing football a bit....but i dont like it that much...cos it needs your butt to move continously, which is a very difficult thing for a lazy,infact laziest creature like mee.....

Kartheek in his blog confessed about the fairer sex, and after him confessing about his stuff, iam also gonna confess some things about fairer sex. I had number of crushes in my life from my school up till now., but never got lucky till now.Once got lucky , but i ruined it(Damn me, got lucky once and messed there too).The thing that counts me the most in the fairer sex is ATTITUDE element and to my poor luck, i havent found my attitude girl till now.Praying hardly and heartily to God to find my attitude girl before i end up with some messy girl.(pls God, are you listening).Iam almost done with my engineering now and still dont have any girlfriend(God listen to this, not fair kadha.....so be humble).

One thing i strongly believe is, whenever you are in a big mess,dont panic, cos everything is in your perception.Its in the way you handle it and the way you look at it and in the way you deal with it.

Thats it for this post. Pls post ur comments.i have already thought of the topic of the next post.Writing this kind of stuff is making my soul pure because of confessing all my guilts and shortcomings here.So think God will start fulfilling my weird wishes .(hahaha). C ya.....

mie...first blog....

hmmmm.......to start telling about me,its a lot of pain in the ass to write all(or atleast some) things about me cos i bet iam one of the laziest creatures on earth and its really difficult to put my bum on the chair nd strt writng my blog.
Coming to me,iam a common guy ,i love to freak a lot,damn bad at my regular college stuff,tht is my academics......scored five point someone once,and kudos to chetan bhagat and his novel "five point someone" ,iam being proud(or atleast not regretting for my bad score) for scoring five point some which i havent scored uptill in my life.
summarizing my life in short would be a bit difficult thing,but i will try to complete this crap regarding me in 2 or 3 blogs.I love breaking rulez.In this blog,iam gonna write abt my first major break though (hahahahaa though breakthrough is not the term to be used here,but i like using it here..).







my schooling happened in Kanpur , Agra nd Delhi,nd i can say Delhi was the best of the three,i had good bunch of friends there and one day..............







We all came to a decision to run away from our respective houses,reason being parents burdening our lives with just bloody homework.I was in 8th class at that time,so we all manipulated sum money from our homes.( i manipulated 2000 bucks from my home).We collected around 15k bucks at total.we were at total 6 members and we were damn proud of us for being free nd independent.



we went to many places ,nainital,mussorie,dehradun and after getting finished up with every single penny we had(around 5th or 6th day.),we were now worried of survival....just like an endangered species worried of their survival,we had to beg money from some person,explaining all the stuff abt us to make him believe tht we r not any theifs or pickpocketers and making him believe tht we belong to decent families.Mean while the things got tensed at our homes, i.e.. our parents association.(tht is our respective parents....in total) were tryin like hell for searching for us and were blaming each other of their son being initiator for a great crap like this.



mean while at dehradun we all managed sum money nd finally called our parents informing tht we have no money and about the place we got struck in.We couldnt understand why were our parents being so humble that time,but we expected something very odd gonna happen to us.We were received by our parents association very gently and when we finally reached our homes,we were white washed.We had a nice feast from our parents for doing such a great accomplishment.



Though these things look a bit immature(i dont considered this thing immature cos i was just in 8th class at tht time nd immature is something which u do hastily without applying thought process, though u know tht it shouldnt be done)This was the first major breakthrough in my life(breaking of a rule) and this kind of things repeated a lot in my life These kind of things really smittens you.I want this kind of things happening regularly in my life cos these r the things u gonna remember wid a smile, for the crap things you did in the past.



Really i wanna be lucky like the IITian chetan bhagat who is scorin a handsome nd lumpsome bucks for writing his thoughts and his life,i actually have a lifetime dream of writin a novel or two and may be iam gonna write it by 30 ,atleast,and hoping to score sum bucks like Chetan.



I like writing this kind of stuff,but the two things tht come in between to devoid me to write are the laziness of me and the critics,cos iam not tht good at writng.
sincere comments are always welcome .ok le...please post ur comments and make me know that do i have any potential of being chetan,cos i dont want to loose money on my first book, that is publishing of my first book as free copies to colleges nd street vendors and the chat vaala for wrapping up their stuff from the pages of my book(hahahaaaaa).I cant bear that.Thats it for this blog, cos its almost long time i have been working hard, writing the blog nd editing it, which is a very difficult thing for a lazy creature like me.



catch u all in my next blog ..chaps.................