A new day has come-2

I am awake from the deep slumber i was having since 3 years.Its  been 3 years since my last post and my situation has not change at all.I am still the same,jobless.
I need to get an opportunity in coming time.I hope i get it.i am hoping to get a good opportunity.I am in my good senses and want to get into something wonderful.I hope i make it

A new day has come

After facing an almost death, i am back to writing.Its been an almost 3 years since i blogged...and it feels good to pen again.I was hospitalized to TB meningitis  on 6th April 2013 and i have been recuperating since then.Its been more than 3 years , close to 3 years and six months,my parents are bearing me since then, and i am very honured to have such parents who take care everytime.

Perturbed

I am not sure of the time , I will publish this post.But let the time take its hold , and then I will publish it. It is dated 30th march of 2013. I generally try to avoid myself in the blog but now It calls for the ink to flow.

It will truly be one of the disappointing end of the so much coveted MBA of me.I expected it to launch me in all together different world full of aspirations, ideas, young minds and a few years of experience to start something on my own.But the things have proved me completely otherwise.

Too many strategic mistakes at my side have proved me worthless at many instances.In retrospection,
I held things too long and too tight.

This season has killed my confidence from the top to the bottom.I expected myself to do much better than many of the other people. Probably too much of complacency, lack of discipline and regular quotas of intoxication has proved things otherwise.I hold to the point that post this student career, Its a goodbye to intoxication so that my rest of some life finds some meaning and the meaning is attached for a cause.

Season 2013

Its been a happening 2013 now. Season of placements at IIMs have started and different people have different stories.Some of them are happy to achieve  what they dreamed of, some of them are sad to their bad luck, some of them are frustrated, some of them are elated, some of them drunk , and some of them stoned.

People really want to know how does a company prepare a shortlist.Do they make a bunch of chits and select out of it. Do they use some random number generator function mapped to a name? why is that a particular candidate continuously gets a shortlist? Is there many to one function existing with him? How is that a girl outsmarts boy in most of the interviews. I am not questioning the intelligence of woman power but statistically  the results are heavily biased to woman.I have seen certain friends of mine looking for an option of sex change to get a job.Some people repent the idea of MBA and IIMs . I was thinking of the question that why does a recession occur. A friend of mine told that right companies choose wrong people. Companies don't progress. The sector starts screwing and hence the economy, which leads to recession.

Some also say that companies pick people according to the sizes. 34D gets priority over 34C and hence so on.unbuttoned shirts work all the time. Nature and God has done injustice to men in this case. They don't have any potent weapon to showcase their skills.

The interview is another fun part of the process. We try our best to sell to the interviewer, where as he is more interested in the taste of the coffee and biscuits, some are naturally pervert,  some are yawning, snoring and even sleeping. We try to justify and lie about the achievements we have done, connect work experiences to the job, and make the interviewer believe that their company is what we have born for. Some interviewers make fun, enjoy the mockery and are happy that IIMs is the only place where they get so  much respect.

Some are still fighting and will fight till the end of the season.Some don't care. Some are worried on the amount of loan they have.Will they pay or will default the bank is worth waiting for!!!


Let us analyze some of the graphs which will give better idea on various aspects.    

                                            

                          

PS : I am still the part of the rat race  and will try to bring in more sarcasm in the part-2 of it.

Thus Spoke Zaratusthra

I never believed in the concept of lyfe changing book though I have been more or less a consistent reader.Recently I had an encounter with friedrich nietzsche and It was with his last book "Thus spoke Zarathustra".

I felt like, its a life changing book just after reading 30 pages of it.  Hoping to complete it soon.I hope it really does change lyfe.

En-lightened

Finally back to some good senses  and I have to work on things towards progress. I have realized the mistakes done and this should lead me to something good. Enough of illusions and short term pleasures. Now it is time to build the way towards the ideas I always had and make them realize, else wise  It will be too late to make them realize.

PS : #happy enlightenment

Glad

Have I been gone,
Just that I am alone,
I should be happy because
Somebody finds me charming,
and somebody who finds me admiring.

Craving for the home,
for the people I love,
I am at despair,
but I need to  be strong now.

There is a thing called hope,
which fulfills the desires unlimited,
the world has run on it,
and It also should keep me spirited.

I should look into finer details of lyfe,
get happy with a baby smile,
take a shot or two in a while,
cos lyfe is a voyage with unlimited miles.

I think of my closest  whenever I am sad,
I think of my great mom and dad,
because sorrow is just a fad,
I owe to god for this lyfe and I need to be glad.

Hmm.....

My world started with few people. I have dumped few people . I have lived with few people and I want to live with few of them forever.

I intend to have dependency on few and intend few to have dependency on me. Let the dependency of it be materialistic or non-materialistic ,it does't even matter to me.

Materialism is a non-dividend paying security and nothing else. But when non-materialistic investment stops paying dividend, that is when you ought to realize, you have made a bad investment and you ought to pull out of it as soon as possible.

The concept of self-interest is really not worth a discussion when we talk about relations.To me ,Finally people boil down to relations, materialistic and non-materialistic!!!

So when I close my eyes with content, I should be happy and living rather than dying.Cheers to all the people who bear me.

PS: Few shots of White rum  and I am flowing :)

I want to ........

I want to drink from the clearest water,
I want to climb the greatest mountain,
I want to tread the longest road,
Its life, so bliss,
and I cant afford to miss.

I want to live life healthiest,
I want to help the many poor,
I want to be the funniest,
Its life, so bliss,
and I cant afford to miss.

I want to play in the beautiful snow fields,
I want to live at the greenest meadows,
I want to jump from the greatest heights,
Its life, so bliss,
and I cant afford to miss.


I want to sing a beautiful song,
I want to get the high so craziest,
I want to heal many souls untouched,
Its life, so bliss,
and I cant afford to miss.

I want to pray the God so beautiful,
I want to be the most joyous of all,
I want to leave my name on the wall,
Its life, so bliss,
and I cant afford to miss.


I want to travel  a million mile,
I want to do all things before time,
I want to leave world with a smile,
Its life, so bliss,
and I cant afford to miss.


PS: inspired from movie "Life in a day". 100th post too :)

Light my fire :)

You know that Its so true,
You know that I am not liar,
Babe, It can't get much higher,
Come on baby, light my fire,
You know that its so nice,
You are the one,
I cant forget to admire,
I would be left to dire,
Come on baby , light my fire.

I know that its so right,
I would not be able to deny,
the time with you just fly,
I want to be on an eternal high,
Come on babe, light my fire
That is my only desire.
I know that its so good,
I can hold it if I could,
Come on, babe light my fire,
 this is the only thing I aspire.

We know that its so fun,
We know that it has just begun,
We know that its still not done,
Come on babe, light my fire,
We need to admit and admire.
We know that its so fine,
Let it be true and divine,
Come on babe, light my fire,
You are my unending desire.


PS : inspired from "The Doors"

O Womaniya

Jasmine was done with her engineering  and was able to find a job.She always wanted to do a job where she could make decent money, gift her mom a saree, gift her brother an Ipod, make a memorable trip with her friends.These were her quintessential wishes she wanted to do before she gets married to a guy who is decided by her parents.

Arpit was a guy who was masters in business administration and was working in Singapore as consultant in a multi-national. He had a colleague who was Korean and to his understanding, she understood every part of him.He wanted to marry her, but it was way too much for his parents.Arpit anyway could not dare to tell his ideas of marrying her and the only way he could marry her was by disappointing his parents.

Meanwhile Arpit parent's found a bride who was coincidentally Jasmine, as she belonged to the same community as that of Arpit.

Jasmine was told about Arpit by her parents and was shown a photo of him by an e-mail.Jasmine always wanted to know in detail of  the person  she is getting married to as she knew she will get married once which has to long lifetime.However, she hardly had anytime to know about him.The coming weekend as insisted by Arpit's parents, he has to travel to Agra, India, to meet his parents and go to meet Jasmine parents and decide on the prospect of the marriage.Jasmine was a good looking girl, not very modernized as the Korean girl and was more or less another orthodox Indian girl who had simple dreams, simple ideas and simple ways of having fun.She could be very happy with her first beer,first kiss ,or her first date  with her prospective husband.

Jasmine had to undergo a long interview with the parents of Arpit where she had to answer questions like ,if she can cook, tailor clothes and her behavioral aspects w.r.t children.Jasmine parents did the part of their effort to prepare her for the interview well.They knew the questions which were to be asked as if they were leaked from the interviewer and they prepared her for the responses to the questions.Jasmine was not happy of all these as she hated banality, but again she had to submissively accept without any retaliation.

Jasmine had to find a way to know if she can fit to his ideas and he can fit to her thoughts.She contemplated here and there and finally thought of taking the help of a friend, Aakash.Aakash was her colleague and a nice guy.Aakash had a history too in this story and he is attracted to Jasmine and when Jasmine asks her to find a way to know about Arpit and if Arpit is worth enough for a lifetime, he like any other Bollywood flick, subdues his emotions and gets ready to do the best for Jasmine as if it is the only holy task  left on earth.He tries to content himself by becoming the best friend to Jasmine.

Meanwhile Arpit has to subdue his emotions of his soul mate, the Korean girl and this recipes to a beautiful confusion.

Arpit had to make sure that Jasmine fits in his lifestyle.He had to ensure that she is decently read, well spoken so that he can take her to the social obligations he has to meet.He was concerned about the materialistic aptitude of her and this were pretty much asked by him and his parents.

Jasmine had to find a way here and was relying on Aakash to bring her to rescue.Aakash had an experience of  adoring Jasmine and he concluded that the best way to help Jasmine is to dump his emotions  he looked for the person he wants to marry.He calls her, says her that If she can ensure that the marriage happens somewhere after three months, she can ensure if she gets a right person.She should initially try to communicate with him for few times and then, as the God by nature has made men desperate will start taking care of the attention.Meanwhile, she can find his tastes, tell a bit about her too.In course of time, She should disclose some of her past , and make him disclose some of his sensitive past too.This formula needs time and this will ensure that the right thing is executed.

PS: Arpit marries Jasmine in next 4 months, the emotion of the Korean girl is faded from his mind and both are living happily.

PPS: An effort for a story on a difficult subject which was suggested by a friend.

PPPS: I hope the effort is worth it :)

I need You

From the day when i saw you girl,
i want to be with you now,
as without you, my life is not complete.
oh baby, i need you.
oh baby, I cant live without you.
For the rest of life,
i need you,
i love you.

From the moment i heard your name,
my thoughts have been never the same,
i have been dying to live with you,
as without you, my life is a "hell" complete.
oh baby, i need you.
oh baby, i cant live without you
for the rest of life,
i need you,
i love you.

From the first time when I kissed you,
this world looks altogether new,
I now know the meaning of bliss,
and can give anything for that one kiss,
oh baby, i need you.
oh baby, i cant live without you
for the rest of life,
i need you,
i love you.


From the moment when I fed you,
when you were in need,
Sick but yet loving me complete,
I decided , to be near you,
for the life eternal indeed,
oh baby, i need you.
oh baby, i cant live without you
for the rest of life,
i need you,
i love you.



PS: Inspired by Marc Anthony song.

LYFE

I left my home,
clueless about the future,
Is it the end,
or Lyfe begans again?

Heart has the determination,
Deprived of money,

Is it the end,

or Lyfe begans again?

Bucket list

I am pretty much inspired  from my favorite acting legends , i.e. Morgan Freeman and Jack Nicholson.

I feel like sharing my Bucket list after a lot of contemplation.I will add/edit in course of time and will cross it if done.

Bucket list

1. travel to France,Greece, Italy and other European countries

2. Be an entrepreneur

3.Do skydiving and bull race

4.Write a book

5.Start an organisation which serves similar to Narayan Krishnan

6.eat hash brownies

7.Own a house which has bar, library and a squash court

8.Learn a foreign language

9.Go to Allipey(kerala) again in lifetime

10.Finish beer at one go(650 ml J)

11.Go to las Vegas

12.Win something in casino

13.do  mountain biking

14.Complete a novel in go without stopping(need to do few more times)

15.Watch good movies continuously for a day

16.Spend more than 6 hrs in a library at a stretch

17.Kiss a hot stranger

18.Do trade in futures for once at least again

19. Travel to LOC

20. Experience Mount Everest

21.Go to wagha border

22.Eat favorite recipes of various foreign places

23.Take mom and dad to a foreign country

24.Buy mom a luxurious house

25.Learn swimming

26.To see a place full of snow

27. To see a Nadal vs Federer grandslam final
28. To visit the eight wonders of the world
29.To own a vintage car
30.To make a confession at a church

Guilty

Walking on the way,
I am reminded of a say,
What do you come here for,
till the end of your day.

Few make fortune,
Few die unnoticed,
few live for relations,
Few want to be remembered.

I look for the answers,
to the convoluted questions,
What would have happened,
If I would have made the opposite decisions.

some look for charity
to get rid of the guilt,
some look for humanity,
for the character they want to built.

I am the guilty too,
after all I am a human,
I have to be part of the society,
Better die unnoticed than to be rebellion.

India -65th year of Independence

It all started with a debate among them.One of them were pro to the debate and two  of them were against it.They thought about verifying the facts and decided to go to Yama  to seek permission.

When the situation was explained to Yama, Yama had to ask chitragupta about any ammendement corresponding the abrupt visit to place outside heaven.After an hour, Chitragupta was able to find a clause which mentioned  that by special request they can go for a limited time.Three of them came close  and agreed to spend a week on earth.

After a discussion among them, they reached a consensus that they will go to India.They wanted to see the present face of their efforts.They wanted to face the destiny of the purpose of their life.Chitragupta was taking updates on the location they want to and finally with some effort, he was able to calculate the geographical location.

It sounded a good trip to all of them.They will  be able to see  the healthy plants for the seeds they have sown by sacrificing their life.They were also concerned about the fact that they have to leave heavenly pleasures  and see something starkly opposite.

In some time , they were ready with bags packed awaiting for a journey of lifetime.Bhagat was very happy for the trip and was imagining the country for which he sacrificed his life at the age of just 23 years.His companions for the journey were his companions while death-Rajguru and Sukhdev.

They reached India with the magic wand of Chitragupta.It was 15th August and the first thing  they wanted to do was go to Delhi.They had to struggle hard to beat the crowd.They had passes arranged by chitragupta and were ready for a wonderful show ahead.The day started with a speech by Manmohan and three of them were mesmerized by the speech.They found that India was a nuclear country and felt proud of it.They had  a discussion with an old gentleman beside them and were very proud of the facts delivered by him on India.They learnt that India is going to be next superpower in next 30 years.In few minutes, they saw a wonderful display of the planes crafting India in the tricolors. All of them were at their feet jumping and clapping.Few of them found these people incongruous making irked expressions on their face.They belonged to elite class of India and expected sophistication.

After a wonderful time, they went to see India gate and were thrilled to see the place.It looked very artistic and they were thrilled to see it.They thought of going back to the place where they belonged to.Rajuguru went back to Maharastra, Sukhdev started towards punjab and Bhagat singh traveled to Lahore.They decided to meet two  days later and describe their experiences to each one  of them.

Sukhdev after reaching maharatra  saw Anna hazare fighting for anti-corruption movement.He asked few people around and found the exact story.The nation was now a slave of corruption .There were people who were fighting since an year for an anti-corruption bill.He thought, something so pure and so right takes so much time to be implemented.Back was the time, where people sacrificed their lives at a stranger's call to  free India.Now,people are agitated due to traffic problems created by these people.The people struck in traffic seem more intelligent , probably because they knew Its of no use.It looked like Corruption can neither be created, nor be destroyed,It changes from one form to another.

Meanwhile Bhagat Singh reached Lahore.He went to an old man and asked about the happenings in lahore.The old man snapped "bomb blasts."Bhagat Singh was shocked by the answer.The old man lost his two sons and all his grandsons in one of the bomb blasts.Last year, there were around 17 blasts, and the dead were countless.Some lost their children, some lost their parents, some lost their friends.The irony was: the  reason can be anything for bomb blast.The reason from public appearance of benazir Bhutto to public display of affinity towards a western nation.It all was very depressing to Bhagat.All his efforts towards the nation sounded dubious to him.He expected his country to be prosperous and happy while it was starkly opposite.

Rajguru was on the way to Ludhiana from Delhi and  saw big shopping malls on the way.He was tempted to go to one of the shopping malls.He entered one of the shopping mall. and started looking for something Indian.He roamed around and saw innumerable brands.Adidas, puma, nike.The country in the name of FDI is back with bringing foreign clothes and selling them like hot cakes.He was reminded of the struggle put by Gandhi ji  to ban foreign clothes.Now India has become hub for access to cheap labor and at the same time selling the same  foreign brands at the premium prices.The foreign companies accessed cheap labor of India  and at the same time, made fool of the upper class.India in a way was hollow to him.FDI's can collapse stock market  in few days by pulling out and slowing down the economy.He felt, India is missing the pillars of foundations towards progress.

Two days later, Bhagat,Sukhdev and Rajguru decided to return to heaven earlier than anticipated.All they could feel happy was Celebrations of 65th Independence day of India.

PS: After seeing a lots of celebration on facebook about 15th August, I decided to shift to the other side for this post.

Peaceful warrior

A movie different from the regular ones.Do see the movie.Its worth a watch for people who prefer "drama" genre. It had a lot of dialogues which are worth writing here.Some of them are below.

Socrates: Everything has a purpose, even this, and it's up to you to find it.
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[from trailer]
Socrates: A warrior does not give up what he loves, he finds the love in what he does
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[from trailer]
Socrates: I call myself a Peaceful Warrior... because the battles we fight are on the inside
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[from trailer]
Socrates: This moment is the only thing that matters.
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Socrates: Where are you?
Dan Millman: Here.
Socrates: What time is it?
Dan Millman: Now.
Socrates: What are you?
Dan Millman: This moment.
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Joy: [to Dan, touching his chest] I don't think your leg was the only thing that got broken.
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Dan Millman: The journey is what brings us happiness not the destination
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Dan Millman: The ones who are hardest to love are usually the ones who need it the most.
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Socrates: Those who are the hardest to love, need it the most
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Socrates: There is only the journey
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Socrates: A warrior is not about perfection or victory or invulnerability. He's about absolute vulnerability.
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Socrates: There is no starting or stopping - only doing.
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Dan Millman: There are no ordinary moments.
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Socrates: It's the journey, not the destination.
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Socrates: There's no greater purpose than service to others.
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Socrates: Everyone wants to tell you what to do and what's good for you. They don't want you to find your own answers, they want you to believe theirs.
Dan Millman: Let me guess, and you want me to believe yours.
Socrates: No, I want you to stop gathering information from the outside and start gathering it from the inside.
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Socrates: People are not theirs thoughts, they think they are, and it brings them all kinds of sadness.
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Dan Millman: Life has just three rules?
Socrates: And you already know them...
Dan Millman: Paradox, humour, and change.
Socrates: Paradox...
Dan Millman: Life is a mystery. Don't waste time trying to figure it out.
Socrates: Humour...
Dan Millman: Keep a sense of humour, especially about yourself. It is a strength beyond all measure.
Socrates: Change...
Dan Millman: Know that nothing stays the same.
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Dan Millman: I took for granted what I could do. I was sloppy with my life; I'm scared but I feel like I got rid of all the old stuff and it was the right thing to do.
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Socrates: Death isn't sad. The sad thing is: most people don't live at all.
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Socrates: Sometimes you have to lose your mind before you come to your senses.
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Socrates: Do you know what's the difference between me and you?
Socrates: You practice gymnastics, I practice everything! 

FUCK YOU

My all time favorite monologue , from 25th hour:

Fuck me, fuck you, fuck this whole city and everyone in it. 

Fuck the panhandlers, grubbing for money, and smiling at me behind my back.
Fuck the squeegee men dirtying up the clean windshield of my car. Get a fucking job! 

Fuck the Sikhs and the Pakistanis bombing down the avenues in decrepit cabs, curry steaming out their pores, stinking up my day. Terrorists in fucking training! Slow the fuck DOWN! 

Fuck the Chelsea boys with their waxed chests and pumped up biceps. Going down on each other in my parks and on my piers, jingling their dicks on my Channel 35. 

Fuck the Ko-rean grocers with their pyramids of overpriced fruit and their tulips and roses wrapped in plastic. Ten years in the country – still no speakee English? 

Fuck the Russians in Brighton Beach. Mobster thugs sitting in cafés, sipping tea in little glasses, sugar cubes between their teeth. Wheelin' and dealin' and schemin'…go back where you fucking came from! 

Fuck the black-hatted Hassidim, strolling up and down 47th Street in their dirty gabardine with their dandruff. Selling South African apartheid diamonds! 

Fuck the Wall Street brokers. Self-styled masters of the universe, Michael Douglas, GordonGekko wannabe motherfuckers, figuring out new ways to rob hard working people blind. Send those Enron assholes to jail for fucking life! You think Bush and Cheney didn't know about that shit? Give me a fucking break! Tyco! Worldcom! 

Fuck the Puerto Ricans. Twenty to a car, swelling up the welfare rolls, worst fuckin' parade in the city. And don't even get me started on the Dom-in-i-cans, 'cause they make the Puerto Ricans look good.

Fuck the Benson-Hurst Italians with their pomaded hair, their nylon warm-up suits, their St. Anthony medallions, swinging their Jason Giambi, Louisville slugger, baseball bats, trying to audition for ‘The Sopranos.’

Fuck the Upper East Side wives with their Hermes scarves and their fifty-dollar Balducci artichokes. Overfed faces getting pulled and lifted and stretched, all taut and shiny. You're not fooling anybody, sweetheart! 

Fuck the uptown brothers. They never pass the ball, they don't want to play defense, they take five steps on every lay-up to the hoop. And then they want to turn around and blame everything on the white man. Slavery ended one hundred and thirty seven years ago – move the fuck on!

Fuck the corrupt cops with their anus-violating plungers and their forty-one shots, standing behind a blue wall of silence. You betray our trust! 

Fuck the priests who put their hands down some innocent child's pants. Fuck the church that protects them, delivering us into evil. 

And while you're at it: Fuck JC! He got off easy…a day on the cross, a weekend in hell, and all the hallelujahs of the legioned angels for eternity! Try seven years in fuckin' Otisville, J!

Fuck Osama Bin Laden, Al Qaeda, and backward-ass, cave-dwelling, fundamentalist assholes everywhere. On the names of innocent thousands murdered, I pray you spend the rest of eternity with your seventy-two whores roasting in a jet-fueled fire in hell. You towel headed camel jockeys can kiss my royal Irish ass!

Fuck Jacob Elinsky. Whining malcontent. 

Fuck Francis Xavier Slaughtery, my best friend, judging me while he stares at my girlfriend's ass. 

Fuck Naturelle Riviera. I gave her my trust and she stabbed me in the back, sold me up the river. Fucking bitch! 

Fuck my father with his endless grief, standing behind that bar sipping on club sodas, selling whisky to firemen, cheering the Bronx bombers. 

Fuck this whole city and everyone in it. From the row-houses of Astoria to the penthouses on Park Avenue, from the projects in the Bronx to the lofts in Soho. From the tenements in Alphabet City to the brownstones in Park slope to the split-levels in Staten Island. Let an earthquake crumble it, let the fires rage, let it burn to fucking ash and then let the waters rise and submerge this whole rat-infested place… 

No. No, fuck you, Montgomery Brogan. You had it all, and you threw it away, you dumb FUCK!”

PS:   To all the dumb fucks, Fuck You !!!!

A fine balance

I fell down on the floor with blood oozing out of my mouth. A fading image of a man was calling for an ambulance while the rest of the people were watching me.I was put on a stretcher and carried into the ambulance.The pattern of honking sound  of the horn of ambulance was making me dizzy and I was loosing consciousness.


I was sure that It was my last day and started with a thought of rewinding my life from the start. The people I loved, the things I did, the gratitude I owed to people, the mistakes I did, the bitter things, the things I always wanted to do, but never did.


I  felt grateful to my parents to have done so many sacrifices which I didn't acknowledge well till late.I felt great for the friends I had ,who loved me , cherished few of the good experiences with them, the trips , the   weed, alcohol, Goa, strip clubs , the cafes  with tea and smoke, the mistakes I had done to few of them, and the mistakes few have done to me. Its always a fine balance.One thing balances over the other in one or the other way. 


I felt a sudden pain at my arm and tilted my head with all my energy.A nurse was injecting syringe into my arm with antibiotics.I tried remembering my next phase of lyfe and saw it unending.My lyfe will not be coming to an end without her, I thought.The time I spent with her was sheer bliss , I thought.The talks we had, the intimacy we had,the places we went to,I remembered all of them.I have had a photograph of all the moments with her in my mind.The first kiss with her, the first trip with her, the face of her brought a smile on my face , though smiling with a blood oozing around was painful, I took an effort to stretch my muscles.


There were sudden changes in our lives.After our studies, she was posted in a different city I was in.I was a Brahman where as she was catholic christian.She was getting married and I couldn't have imagined my lyfe without her.


Once the image of her faded in my mind, I felt unconscious, but some people were trying to bring me to consciousness. It was my mom, and dad who were crying and at the same time pushing me to be awake.I tried my best, but what best It could have been to my ill-fate.I was not in my control.I saw my best friend along with my parents and felt  relieved.I felt at that moment , that I can live my lyfe for these three people.I made up my mind in few seconds.I want to live.I have done a crazy fucked up thing of giving my lyfe for a girl  who is not even here. I agree that its not a mistake of her,but lyfe isn't that worthless to give it up.There are many things to live the lyfe for, and make a meaning out of it.It finally ends up being a fine balance.Happy with  the sad, good with the bad.I passed out in few seconds.


I was lucky to have lost few bones  and didn't had serious injuries after jumping from 7th floor.It took three months for me to recover and during these three months , I discovered love of my parents and friends.


It always ends in a fine balance.

Confession

Sometimes It feels so good to confess your mistakes  and get things back to the way they were initially.It  is the best feeling one can have.Being stubborn on certain things might make you feel better in short term but long term reflections of being stubborn doesn't fetch  a good feeling. 


Relations are especially a sensitive thing to handle. The art of handling it is a learning which continuously evolves over the time.The negative feeling towards a relationship is not a great thing to have to oneself.It makes a bad person of you which you are not actually by nature.


Lyfe is about being good, doing good and living it to the fullest.It should encompass about what you want to do and nail it finally, and while nailing it, the feeling should be accompanied, cherished and spent along with your close ones.


PS: reminds me of a beautiful movie, "Its a wonderful Lyfe"